TTC

I woke this morning feeling bitter and angry, trying to shake off the dreams I had. It was like my own personal nightmare. Girls that I knew in high school, some younger than me, on their second and third pregnancy. Just a dream, although these girls have gotten pregnant in the time we've been tr...

It's never going to happen, I should just give up. I've watched over 2 dozen women get pregnant, most accidently, and HAVE their babies, in the time I've been trying. It's been a year and half almost.The lady at the gas station for christ sake is pregnant. It's never going to happen for us, maybe...

I'm having very positive thoughts about this month. Chris and I have been having so much fun this month. More so than usual. I've been trying to use visualization and a super b complex.  I had two glorious days off, and now it's back to work.  

I really need to vent about that snotty bitch at work. She acts like she'll break if she lifts a finger now. Yes your pregnant, it doesn't give you the right to be lazy. I completely understand being scared to lose a baby, but that's not it. She uses it as an excuse. Same girl…

I still can't believe that bitch said that. She's not even willing to breast pump, she thinks that formula is just as good. Yes, sure. Formula was invented as a LAST option for women who CAN'T breastfeed. It's not meant to be a choice. I understand some women HAVE to formula feed, but not even&he...

Frustrated again. Another girl at work is pregnant. She was on BCP's and got pregnant two days after stopping them. But that's not what frustrates me. Her saying that she's not going to breastfeed because it's weird and un-natural frustrates me. WTF? Breastfeeding is un-natural? I'm sorry I thoug...

  Still no period. My head is swimming in all different directions. I'm working myself up over nothing. Internally battling myself, I feel like I'm pulling my mind in a voilent game of tug o' war. Rationality versus what if. I had back cramps Friday night like mad. I thought for sure yesterd...

  My husband is a wonderful man. "Ooh!", he shouts," Remember Denise? Well she had all sorts of problems with fertility, and she tried every which way. Well I told her about our problems and what the doctor said and she thinks that maybe only one of your tubes is blocked, and ...

  This is just my thoughts, my feelings. My need to vent. Please don't take it personally. This isn't directed towards anyone here. I was just depressed yesterday and crying alone in the bathroom, so I wrote it down on paper, and typed it up later. Or so to speak. As some of our friends…

WARNING: High Doses of trying to conceive talk. Read if you dare. The Beginning Well I had my doctors appointment today. Showed up late but they still fit me in. Which was good because Chris had to drop me off to run some errands that had to get done before 11:00. So he said everything…