Divorcee, Mother, Drug Addict, Porn Star, and College Student. Trying to rebuild my life after years of addiction and hard times. Full time employee, just trying to get by and make it out of the struggle.

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Give Me Strength

May 4, 2011
      You were the biggest commitment I ever had, committed my life to you. You took that and destroyed my dreams, but along the way you gave me the best dream I could never have imagined. My daughter. All I can do is build new dreams around her and clean up the old.…
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  • After Thanks
    November 26, 2010
      Thanksgiving was wonderful, even though half the food I cooked my sister her husband and my dad didnt eat. After cooking and some family time I went to J's mom's house to hang with him and his family. Kenzie played with his little brother, they had a lot of fun, and J and I…
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  • Happy Thanks For Giving *edit w/pic*
    November 23, 2010
      Had another wonderful night with J, When Z is with her daddy I have too much time to spend. We watched some TV and curled in bed early. Slept wonderful even despite waking up a few times. Because when I woke I was cuddled in his arms just like I like it. :)  …
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  • Smiles
    November 22, 2010
      Had a wonderful evening with J last night, I love spending time with him. We watched a movie, hung with his brother and his girl, laid in bed and talked til 3am. I get him, and he gets me. I'm really happy Ive seem to have found someone whos attractive, laid back, sweet, funny,…
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  • I’m Not Good With Titles
    November 21, 2010
      Still recovering from this cold, argh! I hate being stopped up and sniffly, and coughy. Worked Sunday when usually we are closed, but we opened for the Mother Goose Parade. learned how to do the prep, which was exciting for me, I can't wait from it to be MY store! I love running shifts,&he...
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  • Work, Doodle, Love Life *pic*
    November 18, 2010
      Life has seemed busy the past week or so. I never have enough hours in the day. Work is going good, I'm learning how to build the sandwiches, which are lower fat, non processed, no fillers, no msg meats, and fresh daily bread and veggies, organic style. Love how fresh it is! Pretty soon&he...
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  • Still Alive
    November 13, 2010
      I survived the date, which was normal, if not mind numbing boring. Nice guy, but no chemistry romantically when actually faced with meeting. Oh this is why I hate internet dating. I've had a migraine the past 3 days, havent felt like writing much with that throbbing through my skull. I nee...
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  • Internet Dating
    November 10, 2010
      I have a blind date tonight, with hopefully a good guy, and not a crazed killer. Hopefully this is not my last post ever. If it is, well, Im a foolish foolish girl. Pray for me, Im not that nervous but internet dating has always been one of my no nos.      …
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  • For Now
    November 10, 2010
      I am so touched with how many of you remember me, and checked back for me! Makes my heart smile. My new job went well, I like CB hes a good guy just trying his feet in a bad economy. His sandwiches and products are very health conscious. I picked up a 24 hour…
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  • I’m Back
    November 8, 2010
      I'm back. Lots has changed. Reasons why I wasnt here. Hard to deal with reality. I will explain when I have more time.        
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