Day…

Dear Jesus, I stopped counting. I want this to be a life change. I’m trying so hard to not think about it. The first day was crazy but the second and third day wasn’t so bad. Now I’m on Day 4 but I’m not really sure since I’m no longer counting. It’s a new way of life for me.

i know my whole life I wanted to be successful in music & film…since 2! But I think about my life decisions and I know I messed up by doing porn. However, I don’t feel like it will ruin my life. I just think it held me back with trauma.

now that I’m older, I’m focusing more on not living in the past. I decided to let go what those women at my job did to me. I’m going to leave it all alone.

my thoughts haunt me sometimes but I try to cancel those negative thoughts with … well today i distracted with 3 different baths today. I’m so over everything because I need a vacation.

please renew my strength. I feel so lethargic. I don’t want to straighten anything up, put anything away, or clean. My apartment looks like a complete mess!

please give me renewal. Guide me on my job. Help me get seriously focused on my plan. I need you with all my heart Jesus.

amen