Giving the day 2 U

Dear Jesus,

i woke up all stopped up. I need to poop but I cant. The mold in my apartment makes it hard for me to breathe at my place so I wake up feeling like I have strep throat. Lastly, my dad gave me advice to call the school as soon as possible that I saw on Tuesday & tell them that I want the job. I’m not sure if that was good advice or not but I did. I am still scheduled to see the other school tomorrow….so we will see how it all plays out. I prefer to work for a man principal instead of a woman principal…only because my last two principals were women and I’d like to switch it up.

im about to be on my way to see a banker named Yohannes. My stomach is in knots. I don’t want to see him. I know his personality type. The hooker types. When I saw him last time, I was wearing a see through body suit with skin tight jeans. Now I’m going in wearing a tight yellow shirt and skin tight jeans. I feel anxiety because I need something from him. I don’t want to go. I rather not be bothered with him. I don’t think I should see him. But my intuition say to get it over with.

im supposed to meet with the pastor and the music video guy that took nearly a year to give me my video. Why am I going back to him? Only because I need to figure out his base price before I possibly work with someone else.

im still feeling bad from yesterdays text conversation with my producer. He never cared about me or my music. I was just something that paid the bills. As soon as he got an opportunity, he just left me behind. I paid him for music which he never completed and we still have unfinished songs. It’s so hurtful. I don’t know why I would be so different. I always try to help others as much as I can. I am hoping I can get the same reciprocations.

im about to put on makeup and head out. I just needed to get all these things off my chest. But before I go, I pray for peace.

thank you Jesus for a beautiful day. Thank you Jesus for my full tank of gas. Please bless Shervy for being so good to me…I used his card for gas and food yesterday. I pray for my family-that we will all become closer. I pray for my meetings…please let them both be successful. I pray for locations to open up and for all good things to happen.

I pray that You guide my footsteps. Help me become a positive person. I try to see the good in things but the bad things happen and I wish I could turn it all around…but I’m giving it all to you…You created all the heavens and the earth…please help my life. Amen