Happy Fathers Day

Dear Jesus,

Happy Father’s Day to my Heavenly Father, to my grandfathers, to all my father ancestors, and of course my father on earth-I love my dad so much! Not many people can say that they have a dad so I never take mine for granted.

I may not be rich with money but I’m definitely a rich girl with all the love my father sends my way. He asked me to go travel over the weekend with him and my mom and I would not have to pay a dime…but honestly I hate long, slow car rides…and I don’t want to miss out on making much needed money by watching Miss Smith over the weekend for $250.

im learning more on how to adapt to working there. I’m trying to figure out how to go to bed earlier but I still don’t fall asleep until midnight or later. I cant imagine when I have to start falling asleep by 9:30pm and waking up at 5am!!!! This will be my schedule once school starts.

i just bought my first day of school outfit. I’ll be wearing a bright yellow & red shirt that says: BRING ON THE SUNSHINE & some red vans…both from eBay & both preowned….but I don’t care about that…as long as it looks cool and is clean.

Keith, my old wannabe manager, reached out to me. He said he wished that hopefully I’m still his friend. I replied back this:

To be honest, I’m really hurt because I thought you said I would always be your sister and I felt so far from that lately. I had a huge blow to my music career from being deserted by you. Even with this last interaction we had regarding the Cardi B Stage – to pay $500 for a demo- was ridiculous And the event got canceled. What happened to all the people that paid their $500 did they get a refund? Probably not. I always thought Sean was not there to help me because if he truly believed in me like he said he does & really rich like you say he is- he wouldn’t charge me for a demo when I have one already. You couldn’t even provide the demo example that I asked for because you’re scared to ask him – what kind of relationship is that? I also feel like once you got a girlfriend you totally put me to the side like I didn’t matter and even allowed her to talk badly about my music saying it wasn’t current. I never forgot that But my music is very much so current because a top radio station just asked me to perform for them in order to help me with a music grant. I will never stop going after my career but you did stop. I forgive you, but trust is broken.

BOOM! He never replied back after that. Hopefully he realizes that he truly dropped the ball on me and my career…left me in the dirt…so don’t come back into my life-seeking any type of handout. I don’t trust him whatsoever and don’t want him ANYWHERE NEAR my career.

in fact, I prefer to do everything on my own. I don’t want need a manger. I can do it allllll by myself. I will negotiate my own contracts, I will find my own team members such as a lawyer, publicist, and security. I will find my own house one day soon. I will find my own chef…preferably a VERY HANDSOME MAN…I will have a female trainer who’s a former ballerina to help me with staying consistent with working out. I will find a masseuse…preferably an Hispanic man or woman. I will find my own agent ….i don’t need a manager. I really don’t.

Keith is texting back. It started with I’m sorry you felt like I abandoned you but you abandoned me….ugh. I can’t deal with his lies and victim mentality. I don’t want to be bothered with anyone who won’t take responsibility for his actions. It’s exhausting.

I’m going to purchase the Angel lift tomorrow. It helps you have more collagen around your lip area. I may not be able to buy it tomorrow but definitely within this month. I think it will really help my face.

i can’t belive it’s already 4:30pm….im still in bed. All I’ve done was watch tv and eat. Oh, and write on this platform, talking to you Jesus.

thank you for listening. Please give me the strength to get through this day. Please let me have favor when I speak to the makeup artist. Let her go down to $145 & let her stay for the desired hours needed. Please help me choose the right videographer and help me find the time to edit the videos. And please let Dez and Dylan do them in a timely matter-despite my late reply. Please help JULIAN respect me more & REPLY BACK TO MY TEXT IN A QUICKER MANNER…I absolutely despise the way he treats me like I don’t matter but I work with him because I know the quality of work I’m getting…and he does seem to slightly care. Please help my dancer allllll be there on July 24th. In Jesus name. Amen