hate is the word

Dear Jesus, I hate my life. Found out dad has a tumor. Realized my brother and sister still hold resentment from when I was a child. I spoke to him last night and realized how immature and stupid he is. My life is always working. I put myself on tape last night and saw the way i looked….tired and older!!!!!!!! I truly hate my life…but it could be worse right? way worse…so i should just be happy right? just be happy its not way worse. I will focus on gratitude. I cant stand anything.