In LA
Dear Jesus,
I had such a terrible plane ride here…delayed by 2 hours. The only thing good about this is not having to speak to Shervy on the car ride home because I was half asleep and it being “ok” that I went straight to the shower then to bed…without having to say: I missed you, followed along with the obligatory hug, etc.
im excited to be back in LA. I’m happy to be here. I couldn’t live here long term without being sick for my family but it sure is nice to visit.
shervy cleaned his apartment all nice for me. Brand new bath mat, shower curtain, fresh toiletries, lots of water, clean sheets on the bed…I know he’s a good man Savannah. When he picked me up, I barely looked at him…but he dressed very chic….he even had the multi bracelets that people now rock…even I now wear at work to appear cool.
im here because of work. I have a meeting with the casting director of scandal tomorrow. Then the next day I have an agent showcase. It’s intense. Lots of likes to memorize. Not to mention an audition for Dolly Parton. She’s doing a musical and im auditioning for it. My agent got me this audition so I really got to try and get it. I plan on getting the acting out of the way…by taping my acting parts out here…and then tape my singing parts in Houston on Monday. I’m just going to work as hard as possible.
Jesus, I don’t know where I stay with you. I know I must love you with all my heart and soul but the way I’ve been living these days…it’s more like how I feel and nothing else matters. That’s not good.
inwant to incorporate you in everything I do but I get so impatient. It says in the scripture that we must wait on you. My things is: I just wanted to have some kind of youth when my dreams came true. I wanted to show off some skin and wear beautiful dresses and be sexy….i can’t do that as an old lady.
not that I’m old now…I can still pass for 25. I’m lucky in that gene department. I just praybinsleep well tonight. I want some really good rest if possible. Please help me with this father. M aybe I should take my medicine. There!- I took my sleep meds. I hope I sleep well. I’m sure I will. I feel very at ease right now. It’s not too hot…not too cold. The bed is clean. The bed is big. The bed is all mine. I never want to share beds or be a pair…I guess something is wrong with me.
all I know is tomorrow is a big day / well TODAY is…I meet the casting director of scandal! Very cool.
I pray that everything goes well. In Jesus name, amen.