Ptsd

I really wish I could just shut my mind off.

Got free furniture this afternoon.

It looks so much better in Here.

I was remembering how proud I was of the couch I had delivered during could. I had a loveseat before but my girl took a black permanent marker to it and that was that.

I also remember Xmas eve and my daughters dad flipping on me for whatever reason.  I probably blinked wrong. So…

He burned the couch cushion. Crazy.

But I went thru it and it was very real.

Then Xmas morning he sat silently not saying a word while my kids opened up gifts.

Sigh.

I hate him.