So painful

It’s so painful, it’s only 5.57am. Here I am smoking and writing this.

Thoughts running though my mind again and I hate this.

Yes I told her she could do what she wants, so that means this is what she wants  isnt it.

Words such as I am the one ain’t real. Time to wake up and face reality.

I shall be there if you need me. But I am no longer needed.

I wish I get into a road accident later. Just bring me away from reality.

Please I beg you