I am starting this journal as an attempt to get my overly emotional ass some space to vent in a healthy way and hopefully get some insight from others online.
Let me start off by describing myself. I am 34 years old. I have blonde hair, blue eyes, 5’4 and weigh 135 lbs. I am usually in pretty good shape, but lately my gym life has taken a nose dive and for the past 6 months I’ve been eating like shit and have only been to the gym a handful of times. The weight gain has affected my self esteem immensely. I try not to let it…but it does.
I work a 9-5 job selling office furniture. I sit at my desk most of the day. It pays me about 60K a year so I have no real complaints as far as money goes.
I am a recovering heroin addict. I spent the majority of my 20’s in and out of jail, on and off the streets. I have been homeless many times. I’ve been clean for almost 7 years, so that part of my life is done and over with.
I struggle with severe depression and anxiety. It swings back and forth at a constant rate. I am in a poly relationship, my boyfriend has another girlfriend. We are both aware of each other and all 3 of us get along pretty well. The dynamic my boyfriend and I have is a D/s relationship. For those unaware of what that is, it’s a Dominate/submissive relationship. I like to be controlled, owned, used, so on and so forth. He is my Master. I am his slave….I will get more into that later.
That’s it for now. I plan to write everyday. Who knows.