#anxiety

Is there somebody in your life that puts you totally at ease, a person who you are always comfortable with? Why does that person make you feel that way? In short - YES! Less short - Someone I have had in my life so fully and so wholeheartedly for 17 years. Actually, 17 years, June…

I am excited to be writing here on OpenDiary again, though the impetus is somewhat unfocused. I do miss the solidarity of the OD community (circa the early 2000s), but the writing and the reflection that journaling requires is sometimes an emotional terrain that is hard to wade through. I have be...

I need to get off my ass. I have been so lazy in the last few weeks that even Fitbit has commented. I need to move. It took me 2 hours of Facebook scrolling and complete dread of touching the floor to even get out of bed this morning. I wasn't hungry, I have been…

I recently wrote about grief, and the last few months have slowly brought me to a life of extreme anxiety and depression. I spent months, up all night after work wondering if I was going to die out of no where, what I would do if I lost someone else, and basically swimming in my…

So Im sitting at work and it's frustrating because a lot of the transportation's that are being requested are regular people. So I hate bugging them with basic information they already knew/know. So sometimes I won't ask them for it but thats when I get screwed because then we wont have their inf...

I’ve been struggling so badly with anxiety for the last couple of days. I’ve no idea why it comes and goes like it does. I’m fine for weeks at a time, and then BAM! It’s back with a vengeance and I start having heart palpitations randomly basically all day long for days at a time.…

When I signed up using my email address it was for my other, private diary. I even have the email with the diary name, so I know for a fact it was my other diary, but somehow my main diary wound up connected to it. I have no idea how, but I'm glad. My other…

I am exhausted today.  Like, nodding off at my desk exhausted.  It doesn't help that our internal computer systems are down and I can't do any of the work I actually NEED to do, so I'm sitting here wasting time in this diary instead.  At least this will keep my eyes open for 5 minutes.…

So… I think it’s actually working. Either that or I’m so ill with this respiratory infection that I’ve become delirious. I’ve decided to let go of the idea that I’ll ever be the person I was again. I’ve packed her up and filed her away. Until I let go of her, and the past, I…

So… I think it’s actually working. Either that or I’m so ill with this respiratory infection that I’ve become delirious. I’ve decided to let go of the idea that I’ll ever be the person I was again. I’ve packed her up and filed her away. Until I let go of her, and the past, I…