#anxiety

These last 4 months have been extremely tough on my heart and mental state. I have been suffering from cognitive dissonance. To those of you who don't know what cognitive dissonance means, it is basically having two thoughts that contradict each other and makes it difficult for you to come to a c...

I'm just going to jump right in, so there is this guy that I know and we have known each other for years. Over those years I have wanted nothing more than to be with him, but it was never a good time. I did a lot of things wrong while we were still friends…

This chapter is an open letter to myself. In the future, I hope I find you well rested. I know it’s hard to understand the meaning of rest — it sometimes feels impossible to slow down. In times like these I want you to remember when we lit the match of self love. When we…

so.. one of the scariest things that happened to be, besides being homeless, was withdrawls from clonepam or clonazapam. when i moved from ri to florida i was sure i would be able to get my meds filled by the new doctor. but she wouldn't fill my clonepam because it's a controlled substance. which...

so.. it's been ages. i've been on here before. then i left. lots of drama. but it's better now. lots of crazy stuff. im agoraphobic. ive been that way since 16. i have bad anxiety and i think im autistic. i lived with my mother for some time as i went through a divorce and…

Thinking about asking my dad to try CBD because I don't like the feeling of having to NEED pills to live normally. He originally told me he'd rather me smoke marijuana instead, so I'm hoping that it'll go well. I've felt like such dogshit lately and have only taken my medication twice in the past...

I will never give you the satisfaction of knowing what you did to me. From Day 1 I kept telling you no. We were better friends because I KNEW you would never change. You convinced and took over my life. We had an agreement that YOU broke! How dare you!? Who do you think you…

In my previous writings I've talked about R and what he did to me. It's been almost 3 years and him and my old friend group like to come to my work and watch me. It's started about 5 months ago when they saw me working. They started coming more often after seeing me. One…

Mental health office called again. Pushing me to find another doctor. It just reassures how I feel unwanted and too much of a "hassle" to deal with. Yesterday was his court date, I haven't heard back from the DA office on what happened. I can sit here and say I don't care but I do.…

My anxiety has been worse lately, and I think it mostly stems from my job. I'm really unhappy on my current team. I'm just not fulfilled, and I'm constantly worried about making mistakes. My regular anxiety medicine doesn't seem to be helping anymore. So, I've decided to try medical cannabis. I w...