#anxiety

"How are you feeling today?" Well, that's an open ended question for me. Yesterday was not any better. I stayed in bed mostly all day. I did attempt in the morning to clean but my body and mind just didn't want to function. I ended up taking a medication holiday yesterday. I did not talk…

How does one event, comment, smirk, or change in my life effect my complete mental health. I woke up to a beautiful morning with the man I love in a great mood. I gave him a kiss goodbye and reminded him that I love him as I do every morning. I was able to wake…

i’m using this site to rant about things i’m feeling at the time. i don’t want anyone to see my shit and “worry” or whatever. anyways yeah i have a problem. if someone doesn’t focus on me me me then they hate me. atleast that’s what my mind thinks. i love my girlfriend. ignore the…

I'm grateful self care has been my priority the last five years- makes it easier to find peace during these tougher times. The world is in distress A maniac is on the loose I find comfort in not knowing what's going to happen. I don't have to be scared. I have no right to be…

Hm..... I seem to feel a little bit better. And by that I mean... everything is still there, but maybe I am starting to feel more integrated. Like I am experiencing the range of emotions rather than stifling most of them. My anxiety is still very high, but usually the depression feels as high as&...

I have to keep trying to do the things that I love. I need to find my beads. I need to set up a craft area. I need to get a folding card table. These need to be priorities. Because I am loosing my damn mind. And I need something to do with my hands.…

Everything hurts. Between a terrible UTI .. again .. and severe PTSD flash backs and constant triggers .. again .. it just feels like it never ends. I know that isn't true but it has just been such a long long year.. Time stretches on, and I'm tired. So tired. Something has to click soon.…

My eyes carry the weight of my world. How tired I truly am. Heavy and blue. As if I have never slept. My chest carrier my fears. Bound with barbed wire. Wrapped so tight I dare not breathe. My stomach carries my poison.Wretched and disgusting. Overflowing when I catch a glimpse of my monster in&h...

Had therapy this morning and I can’t bring myself to do anything except for settle for my emotions as they come today. It is exhausting to constantly manage symptoms and over-analyze. I think rest is self-care and self-care is important. Sometimes those of us who suffer with mental illness also n...

I am so tired of being tired of being tired. I feel like if the sentence above makes sense to you then you get the kind of tiredness, fatigue and exhaustion I’m referring to. It’s the kind that comes from the brain, not the body. I feel like even standing up is taxing because it’s…