#anxiety

In my previous writings I've talked about R and what he did to me. It's been almost 3 years and him and my old friend group like to come to my work and watch me. It's started about 5 months ago when they saw me working. They started coming more often after seeing me. One…

Mental health office called again. Pushing me to find another doctor. It just reassures how I feel unwanted and too much of a "hassle" to deal with. Yesterday was his court date, I haven't heard back from the DA office on what happened. I can sit here and say I don't care but I do.…

My anxiety has been worse lately, and I think it mostly stems from my job. I'm really unhappy on my current team. I'm just not fulfilled, and I'm constantly worried about making mistakes. My regular anxiety medicine doesn't seem to be helping anymore. So, I've decided to try medical cannabis. I w...

"How are you feeling today?" Well, that's an open ended question for me. Yesterday was not any better. I stayed in bed mostly all day. I did attempt in the morning to clean but my body and mind just didn't want to function. I ended up taking a medication holiday yesterday. I did not talk…

How does one event, comment, smirk, or change in my life effect my complete mental health. I woke up to a beautiful morning with the man I love in a great mood. I gave him a kiss goodbye and reminded him that I love him as I do every morning. I was able to wake…

i’m using this site to rant about things i’m feeling at the time. i don’t want anyone to see my shit and “worry” or whatever. anyways yeah i have a problem. if someone doesn’t focus on me me me then they hate me. atleast that’s what my mind thinks. i love my girlfriend. ignore the…

I'm grateful self care has been my priority the last five years- makes it easier to find peace during these tougher times. The world is in distress A maniac is on the loose I find comfort in not knowing what's going to happen. I don't have to be scared. I have no right to be…

Hm..... I seem to feel a little bit better. And by that I mean... everything is still there, but maybe I am starting to feel more integrated. Like I am experiencing the range of emotions rather than stifling most of them. My anxiety is still very high, but usually the depression feels as high as&...

I have to keep trying to do the things that I love. I need to find my beads. I need to set up a craft area. I need to get a folding card table. These need to be priorities. Because I am loosing my damn mind. And I need something to do with my hands.…

Everything hurts. Between a terrible UTI .. again .. and severe PTSD flash backs and constant triggers .. again .. it just feels like it never ends. I know that isn't true but it has just been such a long long year.. Time stretches on, and I'm tired. So tired. Something has to click soon.…