No Energy

So another day has come and gone. I sit in my room  thinking over the day and how tired i was.  I cancled my Virtual with my doctor today after getting into an argument with my sister about the virtual after she woke me from a nap. She and dad had already talked and she stated she wasn’t getting out of bed today.  I will re-schedule for next week some time.

Then for years I have helped take care of my younest sister. She and I both have Cerebral palsy.  I walk with a limp to one side and with a cart or walker to support me due to a pulled musle in my left leg. She is in a wheel chair and needs help with pretty much everything. That’s my job. Or it was up until three years ago when dad retired.  Since then we both team work but he acts like hes doing it all and fusses about how I do things. It takes all I have to bite my tongue to keep the peace.  I hate drama i hate arguing. Dont nit pick fights for no good reason. Im to old for that mess. And dont treat me like im stupid.. i wasn’t born yesterday.. ya know?

Here comes the rain again…. Hi Mom. Mom always said “When i die put me in the ocean  so i can visit here (home) and Germany” (her home where she grew up)..that way she can touch both places at once.  So that when it rains or we turn on a water faucet we can talk to her. Everytime it rains I imagine she’s visiting.

I need a pick me up.. i got to stay away from sweets as much as i love them. My strawberries are all gone. Any suggestions?