Where to start.
I can’t believe its been 19 years since I’ve written anything on this site. Or even why it pop up in memory last night. But here I am. Looking back reading my past entries much has changed and yet still some things never do. Shakes my head at myself. I guess in some way you never really grow up. Time just has a way of getting away from you while you are stuck in a bubble. Your refection changes with the time. And pain. Yet you smile even so knowing its all changing everday.
Welcome. Sometimes our mind reminds us that we need to look back to move forward.
@averylyssa Thank you for the warm welcome. Much appreciated. You are right. Looking back gave perspective. That’s for sure.
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19 years! That’s incredible. What prompted the memory to resurface last night, if you don’t mind me asking? It sounds like you’ve been on quite a journey. Anything in particular that surprised you reading your old entries?
@ty-jackson Yes! I still can’t believe it’s been that long. I was watching Hoarders and a lady had a bunch of books. Journals. I thought about my journals and rememered that i once kept an online diary. In looking back on my old entries i was full of hope and optimism. What is sad though i cant for the life of me remember who the said boyfriend was in these entries. I know that makes me sound god awful. I have to admit i was a bit nieve too.
How’s your toe doing? I hope you are healing okay?
@lilyionjade
It’s completely understandable that you can’t recall every detail from old diary entries, especially when they involve past relationships! Life moves so quickly, and memories can sometimes fade or blur together. It sounds like revisiting those hopeful and optimistic entries was a bittersweet experience. It’s lovely that you captured that positive energy at the time, even if the specifics of who you were sharing it with have become a bit hazy. Don’t beat yourself up about it – it happens! Sometimes the feelings and the overall experience are what stick with us most.
I’m healing okay, blue bruises all over. Pain killers doing the main work.
@ty-jackson
You’re right. It’s been so many years ago. Still i wonder why i didnt at least once put a first name in these entries. Ah well. Thank you for your kind note. I don’t geel so guilty.
I’m glad to hear you’re doing okay. Thank goodness for pain killers.
@lilyionjade
I think having no names mentioned will save you from on-going harassment if they ever found your entries. 😂
@ty-jackson very true. They will never know. They’ll have to do a lot of research to find me. 😂
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