END OF STARVATION

well. its been a funny few days. i got up to hour 42 or somthin like that, then went to a picnic (haha wat a silly idea!). it was candy heaven so i had a few starburst fruit chews. then i went to a frends house with 10 of my other friends and he had the best food, but i only had 1 sqare of 5cm by 5cm home made pizza.

then i got in the worst fucking mood since a long time, and ate like half a packet of chewy candy. AHG. oh well. no dinner. porrige for brekkie. fast is over. i hated it. never again – id way rather restrict.

anyway i lost 1 kg from the start of the fast to just then wen i checked. thats pretty gud since i screwed up the fast so bad. spose im jus not strong enough, or cant be bothered enough. but that doesn’t make me weak, so i’m not that stressed about it.

one of my best friends got dumped by her bf. i could think of little to say. she was smilin by the end of the night tho so i spose i said enough. i realy dont hav much empathy at all. iv neva been dumped before, i feel unable to put myself in the situation.

she seams alright though.

LIZzY

ps. i realise the title of this entry is melodramatic. (does melodramatic mean over the top? i hope so)

NotAPrettyGirl

April 21, 2005

i am certainly in no position to be giving out nutrition advice (this is the girl that had a pear for breakfast/lunch/dinner and then 2 bowls of ice cream as an after work snack haha) but id say that fasting isnt really ever gonna work… its wayyyy too hard to have a social life and NOT eat food, hope you figure out a better (and safer!) way to reach your weight loss goals 🙂 ~ lia

lilmissaj81

that is a lot of entries for you to read! a lot of borign stuff… sorry! i am 5’3… and no longer 99 lbs. i am 105!

*sugar_n_spice*

April 23, 2005

i’m glad you’re not getting stressed about not fasting. it’s good to know that you won’t flip ou like me when you make a little mistake, take care!

.Steph.

Your body will start to hold on to any fat you have soon enough. Starvation doesn’t work as much as you think it will. I am no expert either, however what you are doing will make it harder for you to fight off illnesses, to keep weight off in the future, to be healthy in general and possibly to have children in the future. But if this is a fake diary, all this info is moot. Have a good day

victim_of_obsession

Good luck with the restriction. For some people, fasting works, for others, restriction is better. I guess it just depends on the individual. Btw, yeah, melodrama is basically when things are exaggerated.

i guess that’s good that you are starting to eat again. by the way why did you stop eating/fasting anyways?

April 24, 2005

Well it was more of a joke, but your title leaves a few clues. I was having a day, don’t mind me.I also remembered another lizzy on here with an ED as well.I think she was older.I would actually hope you are faking because I hate seeing anyone tear themselves apart.As for my exercise and stuff, yeah I am feeling much better. I have a weird schedule and don’t have a set time to get up and go to bed

I could go one night at 6am another at 2 and so on. So I was tired all the time. I have only been doing this for a few weeks and already I feel more energy. I haven’t been eating extremely energizing foods and I am still much better. Now I am eating more oatmeal, fruits and veggies whole grains and I know it will even be better. PLus I am losing weight. 🙂 If you have all that willpower you do

to starve yourself, just think how great you would do with a healthy eating plan, I doubt you would stray much. And you would be healthy and probably still lose weight (if you even need too which you probably don’t) Take care of yourself is all I am saying. I spent my teen years hating myself and I definitely regret it now. They are the most carefree years, enjoy em

Wanted to add about the happy factor with exercise. YESSSS!! Before I was much angrier and in a bad mood most of the time. I would cry at the drop of a hat and was honestly a bit down in the dumps. I would snap at my fiance all the time for no reason and was really bitchy.I have been happier, in a better mood overall and my fiance and I have been getting along better. Hope this helps

lockedinthebathroom

applesauce..? it’s.. applesauce.. you’ve never heard of it?! wow! i dunno how to describe it.. it’s.. ground up apples i guess, and really juicy, and you eat it out of a bowl? with a spoon? it’s really good.. hmm..

ilovepingu3101

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