LIFE UPDATED #2

Hey I havn’t been on in ages cuz my cmoputer fucked up. but its better now soo yay…heres whats been on my mind the last few whatevers, just in summary maybe ill say some more about them in future entries.

i got my tongue peirced! its the most awsome thing ever, but my parents are so upset about it. they now think im a problem child. like you have no idea what kindof a stir it caused in my family. my mum was crying it was so bad.

im gettin a tatoo of a cross on my rist, over my scars from cutting (which will be awkward cuz the tatoo artist will be able to see them clear as day), but i realy want to get it on the left rist, not the right, cuz the right realy means nothing to me. left is like my ‘life/death’ arm, right is just the superficially important arm. know what i mean? anyway its gonna be tiny and just the outline of a cross in black. i cant wait, im gettin it in a few weeks.

iv been feeling pretty great lately, give or take a few very depressive ‘negative voices’ moods. the only thing is that ALL THE GODDAM TIME i feel like punching something. all the time. somebody will be saying something and theres so much tension in me that i just feeling like punching them really hard. its worse when im depressed. actually theres something i didnt write in here before i left, that i usualy would have. i’ve been feeling so agressive lately that i actually started beating myself up. how crazy does that sound? i would just stand there and punch myself as hard as i could in the head until i felt dizzy. Not hard enough to bruise tho. i just didnt know how else to get my agression out… havnt done that in a few days though.

my friend was expelled from school a few days ago for stealing. i was startin to love that girl so much im so sad shes gone…god i miss her already.

so thats all of me that i can think about right now.

xxx