SECRETS OUT

I decided against taking the zoloft. it was a stupid idea. there are only 10 in the packet, and apparently its not good to come off them straight away, which is what i would do. also they’re only reccommended for children if they have OCD, otherwise it’s only adults who it works properly for. i just wanna be happy. like realy happy. not just unstable. which is worse – depressed or unstable? i dont know…

i told my friend nicki that i cut. such a stupid idea. what the hell was i thinking?! I had this stupid thought that it would make me feel better. The second i told her i wanted to take it back, but obviously i couldnt… i just hate not being in control of my own shit. now i’ve got somebody else knowing my stuff. i spose im not too stressed about it though. i’ve got netball on saterday. today’s tuesday. i don’t know if the cuts would have got a bit better by then. right now they’re bright red and they stand out so much. if they’re still like that on saturday i won’t play.

*Fairy*_*Princess*

August 9, 2005

I know how you feel. Im sorry you feeling so down at the moment. It sucks doesnt it? I just wanna be happy aswell. *sighs* if ya wanna talk i’m here xxxx

:random: I think ‘unstable’ is worse the depression. Wellbutrin works great for me.<p style ="background-image: url(http://www.atomic-album.com/showPic.php/72865/GrimmSmilingright.gif); background-repeat:no -repeat; background-attachment: scroll;width:30;height:25″>~

Smiling Princess

YOu know these problems won’t come up anymore if you just stop cutting.

CT_watchmebleed

August 10, 2005

aww sweetie, don’t worry about telling your friend. In the long run all it will do is help you. She may not understand but I’m sure she is going to try and does have your best intrest in mind. Don’t worry, i know how you feel about tkaing it back though.