Day 2

Thank you to everyone for the messages of support. They are much appreciated and needed. I also found out that through the American Cancer Society’s site, I managed to get signed up for QuitNet with all the bells and whistles (i.e., the goodies that one normally needs to pay for); so if anyone is interested, they are conducting a research thing on online quit help, and if you sign up they give you full access to a quitting site. In my case it’s QuitNet, which I had stumbled upon myself; well sheesh, I used another email address and signed up as now I get the complete site for free as opposed to paying whatever the heck it was they wanted for a premium subscription. Let’s hear it for the American Cancer Society and research.

When I walked outside yesterday, this is what I saw:

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So of course I had to dash back upstairs and grab my camera and take the above.

A couple of whittery bits. Have a grand day. I will gnaw my way through.

After a sort of storm

A city lace bedecked
antimacassars require of us respect
we move quiet through this parlor
made sweet in this unaccustomed decoration
exterior design

Odd to see a path end
someone just got tired of shoveling
past half completed
depleted
and lining the streets it already
tells a gray tale of too much traffic

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Respiration

Respiration
the deepest exhaustion
but no energy expended
unnaturally less except in
respiration

Frugality
because beyond what is provided
lies a vision crystal clear
needing more than is encompassed so
frugality

Wherever this meant to go
in its peculiar shape
doesn’t matter now because it stopped
working that way
I was awake at the very moment my movement
made a crick form in my neck and shoulder
on the left side
in my just asleep oblivion
I couldn’t remember how to move

Home hasn’t arrived now
there are ingredients to learn
birds careening off of another Atlantic shore
sea spray slaps against stones and gates
I’m a world away but not really
just learning respiration