Did he lie to me?

Now yesterday when I watch Unprisoned. Paige’s Father Edwin said something very interesting… “A man will never lie to his main bitch because she matters and he cares for her, but he will lie to this side peace or mistress because he isn’t too bothered about her” Now I know my situation is a lil different because he works from home, seems to have a few friends who he hardly ever sees and so unless he is with me he doesn’t leave the flat and if he does it is just to go play Bball, which he hasn’t done in a real long time, or it is to buy a vape or vodka.

Yesterday the plan was that he was going to take me to work and take my car to go check up on his car. But when I woke him up this morning so he could put on some clothes and take me to work, he said he spoke to the   auto shop and they gave him an update and he doesn’t need to go there. Okay cool, so he went back to sleep while I went to work. Since he wasn’t working today…  it being ‘Bank Holiday’ and he works for a UK based company he got to spend the whole day lazing around. You would think he would have done the laundry, kitchen or something to clean up our flat  I was born with the uterus so that is my job, right? Okay I shouldn’t be a bitch because he does sometimes…well often he will do the dishes, which I sometimes do over, sometimes he will put the laundry in but I have to hang it up when it is done…and often he will start cleaning but stop half way so there will be a broom leaning against the wall with the dirt next to it…or a trash bag just planted at the front door waiting to be carried out to the outside bin….I mean I will walk past said trash bag many times until he actually gets up and removes it.

Anyway…so I came home and put the laundry in the washing machine, prepared supper and now getting into this post, but there is so much stuff I need to do…and what is he doing??

Okay people get tired and it is his day off work so he has every right to sleep…but here comes the possible lie…

While I was at work he messaged me with a snapshot of his bank account, and when I asked him why he sent that…his response was how he needed money to catch a taxi to go check on his car. Being gullable I transferred him some money. 

I get home…and the front door is closed but not locked…  (in the past this happened and often he has been drinking)I walk in and he is snoring away…I go to the bedroom and see his vape on the bed and I have asked him countless times not to vape while in bed or in my car, which he did on Saturday night while I was driving….  I go to the kitchen to prepare supper and get the laundry going and notice something missing…the vodka that was in the fridge this morning is gone.

So now I am thinking how he finished that vodka, lied to me about going to see his car so he could get more money and go off to buy more vodka and now he is passed out!

I don’t know what I am going to do!

Well he woke up while I was cooking and told me “make sure the meat is falling of the bone.” Last night the food was disgusting and he couldn’t eat it and now he thinks he is, I replied telling him to eat the pork he so desperately had to cook last night…in the end I caved in and told him to go help self. Anyway he went all off at me before we ate going on about how he learnt he has to pay the excess of R18 000 and he wants to know how much I plan to pay towards it. Told him I cannot pay towards it, although technically it is my fault there was even an accident. He goes onto say how he is stressing and trying to figure out how he is going to sort this all out. Never does he confirm he went to the auto shop. I didn’t ask if he bought alcohol and if has drunk at all today, because I know the answer already.

I also feel like I made a huge mistake marrying him and continuing to stay some what married to him is just adding to that huge mistake. I just don’t know what to get out nor do I know how to. When he asks me if I love him….it takes me a few min to say yes and while I say yes in the back of my head I am wondering if I really do. I think I stopped loving him awhile ago and now just love the good times we have and love him when things are good and don’t want to be alone and honestly have stopped really fighting for this relationship….what will be will be. I just know I won’t be making the first move or at least not yet.