Fake it till you make it!!

That is my new M.O

I have reached the point where I just don’t care and living every day just to get by and be able to wake up the next.

Not sure if this is just a dream and wishing but I hope to one day be able to walk out the door to the life I have dreamt, live it in my own…so adopt my bundle of joy! And leave him behind. For now I will just fake it until I make it.

He says ‘I love you’ and if I say it back I question how much I mean it.
We sometimes get physical but he has more fun than I do…the battery operated best friend gets me off.

Never thought my life would come to this but so it has so gotta fake happiness until I get there. Hopefully will get there before I reach the end of my road. But if not so be it.

I know that is a sad way to live life but I think it is time I start living with the life I got and try enjoy it somehow or so be it.  I can depend on my family. The family I was born into/chose me. But don’t think I can depend on the family I tried to make with the man I share a bed with.