I Wish I Had That Discipline…

I will never forget the night when I read the court stenograph for my accident case. The things that people who knew me so well said about me and the things the surgeons and practitioners said about me made me cry. But after some time, I realized how right they were. the accident changed me… Yes, I was 18 at the time and thought that I had my whole life ahead and could do anything still, but the accident did affect me in way I was either too young or naive to think possible…or maybe I am just now wanting to blame the accident for all the things that haven’t gone quote to what I had planned.

My after High School plan was to get a degree and be some professional  But that didn’t quite happen. For me studying was an issue…and like the Doctors and Psychiatrists said I do have a problem with following through with things…I mean it is clear in the way my life has gone and in my posts; how I say one thing then in a few posts later have changed my mind or failed to follow through.

Right now, I am working in a job that I really hate and suppose that may be applicable to most of the working class on earth but still…I feel like I have worked way too hard in life to work in a job every day that doesn’t quite meet my value. But as much as I try to change jobs or be worth more, I keep hitting a wall….

• I am either getting turned down
• I don’t have the right qualifications
• I don’t follow through with the job search of application
• Don’t complete studies

I read this online  article  Anne Hathaway Shares She’s 5 Years Sober (eonline.com) and realized how no matter who you are or what you do, you too have a battle. But I did find it up lifting how they are conquering their battles. I wish I had that drive and perseverance to follow through with what I want.

How many times do you start the same journey over just to give up and not see the results? Well, I guess the answer to that is that there is no limit. You just gotta keep trying until you get it right or reach that goal. But I am tired of continuously trying and getting nowhere and in the end just giving up.

It is so much easier just to point out all the wrongs… Tomorrow is the beginning…

What is Workers’ Day? Workers’ day is a public holiday in South Africa that is celebrated on the 1st of May every year. It celebrates the role played by Trade Unions and other parties to achieve equal employment standards for everyone. 

 on things I have failed at…