Scripted life

Customs and conventions are like scripts … How they come about, is pretty much like the invisible hand in economics … I believe that a person’s life has pretty much been decided by the time he comes into the world. The influences of his background, parents etc etc etc pretty much make him who he is , and that part of him will make his life, his way of living .. Customs and conventions are like DNA in a person. They evolve and they maintain memories … But memories are dangerous. Which is why, not all of them are triggered and they are triggered only when needed. But customs and conventions are not like DNA. When I am born into this life, the customs and conventions are like the DNA in me. If i never really think about it, my life will pretty much be constructed and lived more or less according to the times and customs then. Damn i lost my thoughts already .. but it sounded like a really cool idea in my head, and i purposedly got out of bed to write it down .. but now i lost it … oh well, i try to piece up the fragmented idea remaining in my head … something like this : Customs and conventions are the scripts in our lives. As much as we like to believe, we are not really unique. Like DNA, they dictate the way we think and the way we behave and react. But when one looks at this view, one really has to increase his scope of view. It is like when you are asked what is 1+1, ya say 2 without thinking. Then you say its easy. But really, its just a matter of the scope of view. Now, ya are asked what is 954654138 x 9784213, now its hard. Yah, its hard for me. But again, thats cos your scope isn’t big enough. Imagine how God would have viewed it, i am an atheist btw. To him, it would be easy. Its the same question, but because our scope of view is different, we come to different conclusion. With regards to my earlier point, i am refering to it with a slighter larger scope of view. Its all mathematics actually. I can’t tell ya for certain the temperature for a day. but i give you a mean value and some standard deviation. If ya think its bullshit, thats just because your scope isn’t larget enough .. But the weather man nowadays are really bullshitting though. They give a range which is totally in itself useless and not self explanatory. Who knows, maybe the way i am thinking now, may itself be another script in life. You see, in philosophy there will always be 3 kinda views. when one propose an idea, another will surely oppose. Then the 3rd view will blossom which is the intermediatary of the 2 ideas. This is pretty much the same. You have a script making ya into this kinda person. Yet, inherently and invisible, there is another script that makes the opposite character. And because of this, the third script is magically produced that created the 3rd view mentioned earlier. Well, it all depends on your scope of view actually. If you are damn obstinate about getting an absolute answer, ya might just as well stay with it. AFter all, this world is already constructed in such a way that pple who think that way will probably be revelled by all. What a scripted life i am living.. and i am damn sick of it. I really want to live the life i want. But i am constrainted everywhere. I don’t want to be diplomatically correct. I want to tell a dickhead that he’s a dickhead. But i can’t because i am usually diplomatically correct. And i can’t because i don’t want to bear the cost of losing other things that might come with that. so after a while, this kinda mentality evolved. From being a totally practical solution, it has now really choked me out of air. This sux. Its 4.30 am now and i am not sleeping. That sux more. Bon soir