Plan B

So, yesterday I had a Pre-Trip pre-test for the buses.  I failed.  I forgot some important steps and let myself be distracted by things going on around me.  I am not real good at speaking out loud, or loud enough, when I think I know what I’m doing and didn’t…and I did miss some steps.

A bright side:  My instructor said I have a nice voice… yeah, I know, but it is rather soft.  Other than the steps I missed entirely, I know what I’m looking for, but I’m just not that good at verbalizing it.  And, it gets me that this pre-trip stuff is largely (as I see it) a bullshit exercise, that they have a maintenance dept. who takes good care of the buses; and there are somethings on the test that I have to say, even though I cannot see the parts I’m supposed to talk about, which gets to me – I am so used to being upfront and HONEST that if I cannot see something and am supposed to say I do, that I cannot.

The pre-trip thing is in large part a Federal requirement to get that CDL, so I must change my perspective and see that it is entirely necssary to get my CDL, whether or not it is real or not.  It must be passed.

The Plan B part:  I have the CDL learners permit. good for a year.  If the bus people give up on me, or if I blow it again, I’ll at least have the permit, and there are other CDL jobs around that I can try for, using this as an experience to guide me.

I want Plan A to be successful, and I will try my best to get it right next time.  I will I will I will.

But if it doesn’t work out, I have the Plan B to fall back on – it’s not over until I give up, and I won’t.

Sigh.  Mom maybe did raise an idiot….

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