Waaaay back in the day I was a member here. had a couple diaries over the years, mostly through highschool. I have it downloaded somewhere. I’m 38 now. suddenly thought of this place a month or two ago and thought it might be the place i need to be again. is it worth a monthly fee? not sure yet. But Here i can be open, here i can be honest, here I can be anonymous and hopefully still connect and get feedback from others.
I have come to terms in the last year or two that I am autistic. have my diagnosis in about a month and i’m terrfied they wont get it right as the place i’m going isn’t progressive with understanding how autism presents in females/AFAB
I’m also asexual. to be specific, i think, i’m demi-romantic sex neutral asexual. I didn’t even know it was a thing until about 2 years ago. I just didn’t get others.
I also seem to present with a lot of things that are characteristic of PSTD, but I cant think of a single thing that would cause that.
What i’m interested in exploring here is what it means to be autistic, what it means to be asexual, what kind of future I dream of, that kind of stuff that comes with my new lifestyle realizations (I’m not very out about any of this in my life just yet)
I also want to get comfortable with using inclusive language. I feel uncomfortable doing that in my every day life, but I shouldn’t. Should be easy for me to say “my pronouns are she/her”. But I feel like that’s too weird in the life I lead. It shoudn’t be. So i start here.
I’m also hoping this might be a place where I can ask things to a diverse group of people… is it typical to prefer not to sit on chairs, at least not normally. I’d rather sit on the floor, a desk, lay down, and just genrally move around rather than sit properly on a chair for any length of time. Agree or disagree? And are you NT or ND? (Neurotypical or Neurodiverse). I want a true oppinon rather than asking a group of austisitc/neurodiverse people who say yup this is an ND thing. but is it?
Neurotypical is what people tend to consider “normal”. The world is built for your brain, you understand how to socialize, etc.
Neurodiverse is an umbrella term for brains that are wired differently. Autism, ADHD, tics and various other diversities i’m really not familliar with as I’m still learning all this.
(By the way, someone please let me know if i’m doing this tagging thing all wrong, because i probably am