A Needless Burden

I don’t think she would describe it the way that I’m going to in this entry, but I am convinced that Kim is adjusting poorly to her recent promotion.  This past week, she moved into another office and accepted what would, for her, be considered a promotion.  She’s getting paid a little bit more than she was when she was in my office and she’ll be doing entirely different work than to what she had already been accustomed.  I guess in this particular instance, Kim has not been inundated by the work, at least, not yet.  I’m not convinced that she can do the job, but I’ve been wrong before.  But as I’m seeing it today, she is struggling with the part of the promotion that would require her to let go of the office she left behind, as well as the people with whom she used to work.  That would be where her current struggle lies.

I’m not saying that we can’t maintain connections with people with whom we have been working for years and years, but Kim can’t seem to let things and people go, especially when she probably should.  She continues to complain about how the people she left behind continue to treat her poorly, outright ignore her, and have all seemingly forgotten that she even exists.  I don’t know what she wants at this point.

Kim was miserable when she was in my office.  She’s seemingly just as miserable now even though she’s moved onto another work environment entirely.  She complains about how people aren’t reaching out to her, not even just to say hello.  She believes that she is being ignored by those same people.  She knows that those people are working, though for whatever the reason, she can’t seem to realize or remember that these very people are busy with their own work.  When Kim was in my office, she constantly attacked these people because in her mind, none of them happened to be working and in some measure, they were all lazy.  Now that they’re seemingly working and doing whatever they have to do, Kim has now found a new reason to attack them.  She despises them because now, none of them are reaching out to her for anything.  She takes their perceived inability to contact her, regardless of reason, as the latest personal attack.

I understand the negativity, because I know that I have the very potential to be the same way.  But at least with me, I know that at some point, I’m going to have let all that nonsense go because that stuff can weigh a person down.  As I’ve said in previous entries, I don’t care about other people’s opinions about me.  Kim, from what I’m seeing, cares way the hell too much about not only how others see her, but also how they have all turned their collective backs to her.

Maybe this is all part of a tragic cycle, one to which Kim might be blind?  Kim brings with her a generally negative vibe.  Her actions and behaviors are equally negative.  People reactive negatively to how Kim acts and in turn, they treat her accordingly.  Kim sees how they treat her and it continues to fuel the negativity that she already brings.  Kim reacts as she does and her negativity continues, as does this horrible cycle.

I normally don’t mind listening to Kim when she rants about various people in the office, but I may have reached a point where I may not be able to tolerate her that much longer.  I don’t know if I’m ready to avoid her, but I know that I’m not in the mood to actively seek her out either.  As it stands, I’m not even one of those people about who she was complaining in the first place.

I will say that in the first week that Kim has been gone, I genuinely don’t believe that anyone missed her, or spent any time looking for her.  I was even a bit more productive myself, being that she wouldn’t interrupt me every 40 minutes during the day, whenever she felt the need to vent.

I have to think that absolutely no one cared that she left.  There was just something about her presence and all the bitching and whining she would do that had to be a turnoff to a good percentage of my office.

They don’t miss her.  Nobody does.  She didn’t leave anything for anyone to miss.