People Suck

I found myself irritated for the majority of the day.  The outside world (meaning everything outside of my head and thoughts) pretty much sucked today.  It’s days like these that make me clearly see the benefit of being an introvert. 

People are tiring.  People disappoint.  People suck.

I could have done without them today.

It seems that of late, Teslas have been one of the bigger cancers on local roads.  I have nothing against Elon Musk, but the folks driving his cars are absolute morons.  If they’re not driving ridiculously slow on these Southern California freeways (62 MPH, when the speed limit in some spots is 75 MPH), they’re refusing to use their damn turn signals.  I’ve reached a point where I loathe Teslas, regardless of color.  I don’t know if that changes any time soon. 

I also found myself irritated by drivers who stop at stop signs and forget when it happens to be their turn in the rotation.  I cut off some dumbass in another one of those mini SUV’s, another one of the recent cancers on these local streets, when he took way the hell too long to pull away from his stop sign.  I didn’t care.  He followed me for maybe a mile or so, before I turned. 

I find it fascinating that people think that they know me, when in reality, they don’t know a fucking thing.  She thought that I was jealous this morning because she was talking to another guy in the office and I just so happened to see.  Truthfully, I wasn’t jealous then and even as I write this several hours later, I’m not jealous now.  But I’m going to let her think I am/was because it probably makes her feel better.  I don’t care.  I don’t have the time nor the crayons to explain it to her anyway.  Now, more truth be told, I would need a reason to be jealous of someone and I am not and will never be jealous of a guy who is effeminate and definitely not even of remotely similar quality to me.  I’m just cut from a different cloth, a more masculine one at that.                    

I spent the final four hours of my workday stuck in what I would best describe as a bunch of virtual in-services.  Apparently, I was mostly behind on my annual training hours for this fiscal year and I was asked to do my best today to get as caught up as I could.  Four hours later and more irritation later, I’m 45 minutes away from the 20-hour threshold.  We’ll have these training hours done before the end of May.  Most of these trainings proved to be pretty dull and I fought hard to stay awake.  I had to rely on text message conversations to keep me awake and thankfully, it worked.   

The last virtual in-service was about Diversity, Equality, and Inclusion, yes, that fucking dreaded DEI nonsense.  Much of the course bothered me because it was so fucking dumb, but I had to sit through it.  I’ll finish it tomorrow morning, hopefully before 6am.  I don’t feel like getting into it in this entry, but just hearing those letters, “DEI”, in sequence gets me so incensed and now I have to deal with this in a damn online training course at work.  I guess I’d prefer it in this manner, rather than having to tolerate someone teaching this shit in person.  Could always be worse, I suppose. 

I’m done for today.

Thankfully, I’m approaching my bedtime.  I need to sleep off this irritating day and start fresh tomorrow.  I already know that tomorrow could be just as dumb, if not more so, so at the very least, I’d like to be rested and recharged to deal with it all. 

We’ll see what tomorrow brings, but I’m not entirely optimistic.   

I’m not.  After all of the dumb stuff that happened today, I have no reason to be.