Ups and downs of early December…

Some good news to pass along. My Dad had surgery earlier this week. He had a kidney removed because there was a rather large tumor attached to it. He should be all right becuase he’s got a spare and doesn’t drink that much so living with one kidney shouldn’t be to difficult for the old man. He got through surgery without any complications and we’ll find out more about the tumor when the do a biopsy on it later this week. I’m just glad to hear Dad is all right and doing well. He just got released from the hospital yesterday and is settled at home and will be relaxing all weekend.

Onto other news, I had a date on Thursday with a lovely young lady. She’s from Oakville, which is only a short hop, skip and a jump from where I reside. We exchanged a ton of emails, very friendly ones and because of how well our exchanges were we were eager to meet for coffee and hang out. We met at a local chapters which had a starbucks attached to it. After sitting down and gabbing over a cup of hot liquid, we browsed around chapters. Both activities lasted about an hour, and I thought it went rather well. Turns out she didn’t think so. I got that whole ‘I didn’t feel it’ email, despite the fact that what she said was complete bullocks. How can you know someone is the person for you after hanging out with them for a little over an hour?

This is what is wrong with relationships today, which also what seems to be wrong with everything. It’s almost like the bullshit we’re seeing with TV networks and how shows are selected. Networks are expecting shows to rake in the super ratings or their cancelled within one or two weeks before audiences even get a chance to become familiar with the new programs in question. What the hell is the bloody rush? What is it with people and this sink or swim mantality? Whatever happened to pacing yourself and not trying to push things too fast? I don’t know about you, but I refuse to judge someone after knowing them for so little time.

When I got back from my date on Thursday, my brother was the first to ask if this woman was ‘the one’ for me. I stepped in and really put that kind of talk to rest because right then and there I said it’s too soon to make judgement. At least that’s what I thought. I also suspect the constant phone checking that took place during the date might be the real reason why there likely won’t be a second date. So while I’m disappointed, based on what I observed that night… I’m not surprised.

I am getting frustated to the point where I’ve seriously considering giving up and becoming a hermit. I’ve cancelled my account with match dot com, angered that three months and $60 has resulted in me still being all by my lonesome and struggling through live solo. I’m generally tired of trying to convince people to ‘settle’ with me. I’m not that kind of person and it’s quite frankly beneath me. I’ve seriously considered taking a real break from the dating scene. I might use this time to focus on things that are more productive, such as the writing and helping out with the boys. I’m tired of the games to the point where I am ready to retire. It’s all bullshi and I’m tired of trying to impress others when I’ve been less than impressed by what I’ve seen so far.

So that’s where I stand right now. I apologize if a lot of this entry souonds like a real bummer but I prefer to be up front with how I feel. I got to spend some time with the kids the last few days and now I’ve got some time to regroup and consider what I want to do next. I hope everyone else is having a better weekend and I’ll be around. Until then…

Peter