A Change of Heart

I made this decision to become a social worker and it is one of, if not the, scariest decisions I’ve made for myself. Everyone keeps asking me why I want to leave Respiratory and the truth is something that I don’t even completely understand. I wonder now if, when the time comes, I will have it in me to completely walk away from it. It’s not a bad path – I mean, I am a great Respiratory therapist and I know it. I know it and everyone tells me so. But it’s a job that just doesn’t love you back no matter how much you love it. It’s a job that takes way more then it gives. It tears at your soul day by day. You have to make these life or death choices for people and you go home every day feeling less than because you just can’t save everybody. I know social work is just as hard but now if I make a wrong move or if I make a mistake people will die. I am a great therapist because I work every shift with this fear of being less then when, at that moment I may need to be better than to keep the person alive when every cell in their body want to die.

You are a hero. As I lay here needing help to breathe, I thank you and people like you who have enough strength to do the job you do. If it is hurting you, it is time to take care of yourself. There is no law that states you have to do or be only one thing. Follow your heart, and use some of that strength you have given to so many for yourself. Take care of a caregiver, and bless you.

I wish I could crawl through the screen and give you a hug, hold your hand for a while. Whatever you choose to do, it sounds like you will find success.

cherrywine

November 11, 2009

Congratulations, or wanting to make a change to better things for yourself, and not sticking with a job that makes you unhappy. You have far more ambition then I do, I cant seem to even get myself into school to complete one major, and here you are on your second. I hope you find your hapiness with social work, im sure you will be great at it. 🙂

Good luck with your decision. Yes you can do it.