White Rug

I don’t think it’s a matter of what I deserve. If it was, then I’m pretty lucky. I deserve much worse.

If it’s a matter of a consequences of my actions then I’m not reaping what I’ve sowed.

If it’s a matter that I’m not actually the problem then I need to be better to help fix it.

If it’s a matter of me being a victim

well

I am not

going to

accept that I don’t deserve it.

I’d walk myself into the sea if it wasn’t just another pathetic attempt by myself to matter.

I’m going to bed.