Decisions to make

He isn’t nice to me anymore. Tonight for now reason he callsbme me a dumb bitch, a cheatinf whore. I’m so beyond depressed over loosing my brother, my son, my service dog sarge.   So much has happened and I’m so angry and bitter for I blame a lot of people for allowing it to happen to jax n me..

I do think he is cheating on me I do Believe he did fuck someone else while I was in the hospital. I do suspect he knows who turned me in. If not was the one who ruened me in to loose my Jaxon.

I miss him so much I don’t know how to get him back. Because deep down I can’t do what they are asking me to do.  That alone makes me a shitty parent.