non-discursivity;

Spent the last few days, like a dedicated server,

dabbling in primarily Jazz and R&B—some

groovy joints and heady, outdated lyricism—

and for the first time in a long time I truly

felt what is meant by feeling in non-discursivity,

almost taking me back to the days of

Bertrand Russell and Wittgenstein-ian logic;

a fresh teeing-off point of logical atomism that

forms an undercarriage for understanding

impression, and more importantly, expression

around proper nouns and functional verbs:

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verbs like break in regard to the heart, or

shrug when it comes to the shoulders,

and shaking all of it off or allowing it to consume.

A dead-end can expose a breakable wall through art.

• Meaning has logical/psychological aspect.
• How do you make subjectivity further

          divisible if you aren’t the subject?

• Felt presence is its own landscape; a

          paper flower that resembles the icon.

• “Indication,” say, of rain, is a symptom of a

           state of affairs. Ex: “X ∈ ŷ (øY) + ‘øX’”

• —A proposition fits a fact not only because it

          contains names for the things and actions

          involved, but that it combines them in a

          pattern analogous to that which they are

          “factly” defined.

• Ex (II): We make ourselves pictures of fact;

   portrait vs. defined duplicant—ready to

           proliferate & combine.

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So, the dead-end can be broken through.  Maybe?

Even the deepest inner sensations are equational.

If talent can manifest light, then all of life (and strife)

in theory, is malleable and reducible; can be almost

welded to becoming.  It feels reductionist for obvious

reasons.  Doesn’t feel that way at the time though, does

it?  Seems like the narration makes you feel every little

bit of incremental death to its full extent, especially

when the moments get fuzzy & pixelated; and

especially when you actually want to die.  Break this

into pieces.  Reduce the abstract existentialism.  Find

more and more ways to reduce it, Russell would have

expected the same.  Just curious, what will you do with

the string theory of existence?  Or where will you look

for better variables?