Unsettled

First of all, I’m glad you’re ok. I have so little energy to check on other people, but I was seriously alarmed by your last entry. Please don’t do that again. Secondly, you don’t need to control your emotions, you need different coping mechanisms that allow you to let go in a safe way and feel and get through your emotions. OCD, anorexia, and the way you throttle down and don’t deal with your anxiety until it blows up and you do things you shouldn’t …. these are control disorders. You need to figure out a safe way to let go and let it out. Writing here is a good start. Don’t censor yourself. Write it as you think it. Try other things too. Go into the woods or an empty field and just scream, as loud as you can. (An empty house works for this too). Try basic meditation, where you repeat one word or phrase as each thought or worry goes through your mind and you let go of it for the moment, breathing out each time you let go. Try something else, as long as it’s safe.

We’re rooting for you here.