How??

How have I made it through life with everything you have been through. I’ve made it because I got the help I needed. I may be in foster care. I may have went to detention centers. I may have been in placements. I may have been in mental hospitals. But all of those experiences have helped me realize that there is more to living. I’ve learned that not everything in life  is all darkness. Some of the things that happen are sunshine. One of the dark times in my life was when I got my heart broken. I was devastated for months. I was crying for a few weeks. He ghosted me on my 15th birthday. He also told me I wasn’t good enough for him. When he told me that I thought I’d never be good enough for anyone ever again. But here I am doing perfectly fine without. I sometimes think about what it would have been like to be with him for the rest of my life. I don’t regret dating him. It all started with me being friendly. But then after a few months it turned into something more. I broke up with the boyfriend at the time to be with him because he kept asking. I should have kept saying no. But I started to feel bad. I was 14 he was 17 when we started dating. We got together in September 2023. We were almost together for a year before he ghosted me. We were at nine months together. I honestly don’t think he ever deserved me. And mind you his name was Gavin. He wasn’t who I thought he was. If I could take back what I did. I never would have been friendly to him. He asked for pictures from me. He pressured me  into doing it.  I should have kept saying no. I should have refused to do as he asked but I also thought he’d stop loving me if I refused. So I did it. I wouldn’t be where I’m at now if it weren’t for him. I’m not 16. He is 19. I haven’t talked to him for almost two years.