lent

so, though i’ve become a terrible catholic, not going to church at all since we moved/had Beau, for lent i am giving up putting down my body. i can’t promise that i won’t vent to you guys here but aloud, i must refrain. i gave that up last year and did feel better about myself throughout. clearly, it didn’t last. dennis is a big fan of this lent promise. for obvious reasons.

saturday, we’re going to fights in port huron….errr, i think they’re in port huron again. they’re not at the same venue. they’re at an army base or something. i’m a little nervous about leaving our poor niece with beau.

when dennis gets home, i’m going up to the library. my books came in!! i can read the rest of the "twilight" series and one other book i ordered as well. i guess i won’t be finishing "bergdorf blondes" right now. sorry, plum sykes, but move over! i’m onto "new moon" next. i’ll be heading up to the club to use the treadmill later too.

i cleaned up today, did dishes, helped sawyer get his wooden tracks out and put away the giant track in the kitchen, finished all my articles…i’m on a roll! AND i actually managed to feel pretty good about myself today. if i could keep the negative thoughts and, above all, the comparisons to other ppl, out of my head, i’d be a lot better than i am.

yoga was sooo good last night. i ALMOST relaxed during relaxation, it was that good! (i have a hard time with that-i have to have a scented eye pillow, pillow under my head, and a blanket and i still can’t relax.) she showed us a good tricep exercise as well. i’m afraid of having chicken wings in future.

anyway, here’s me today. i know i have a way to go but i’m trying…i was down 2 pounds the other day and yesterday, the scale was undecided on whether i’d lost another couple. we’ll see when AF is gone next week…if i can control myself. i ate a cadbury egg yesterday! the horrors!

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