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plenty of strange dreams these past couple of days..will probably try to decipher them later

on my 3rd guinness..plan on drinking the remainder throughout the course of this evening..it’s been that kind of week

today wasn’t so bad..was stuck in meetings..did my staff’s schedule..killed time in between..

it’s my friday and i just finished watching the season finale of weeds..nancy botwin-you are a crazy bitch

onto the subject of d..of course that was coming…

fuck..it feels like the kind of night where we’d text dirty and send pics..i’m feeling tingly..sexy..electric

i feel cheated..this past visit..the kinds of things i wanted to do with him and to him  take time..they can’t be crammed into an hour

although had i known that an hour was all i had..i would have definitely did my best to show exactly what i mean

the mere fact that i put so much into seeing him..and he let shit fall through the cracks is what pissed me off the most

like he didn’t give a fuck..it didn’t matter as much..almost 11 years and i have no idea as to how he feels about me

sure..i am not stupid..he is married..and will not leave..i knew this already..but really?? you don’t love me?? are you really that icy??

i never asked for unicorns and rainbows..white horses and fairytales..i never envisioned us skipping down the street singing love songs..

but throw me a bone yo..i didn’t ask for the role of red-headed stepchild..

and as tempting as it sounds to go back to "normal" i won’t..i believe that this was the last straw..

and so there is no song right now that really comes to mind…

i leave you with this…http://www.youtube.com/watch