28 days to go

So I have just under a month to go before I am on my way back home to Indy. I have checked a few things off my moving “to do” list and happy to be making progress. I have gotten quite a bit of packing done. Thankfully I don’t have a ton of shit, it’s just me and it’s a one bedroom lol. I cannot wait to get going on this. I do hate the packing, unloading and unpacking part of moving. We have the truck rented, got loaders scheduled to load the truck. Some things I have to wait til Monday to do, since the places I need to call are closed lol. It’s starting to look like a storage place in this apt lol, but I am happy to be about halfway done. I think I have all the boxes and stuff I may need. I may grab one more roll of tape, for just in case, but I think I have everything I need as far as packing. 

I had been contemplating for quite a while about taking my pt job with me as well. There’s a store not to far from where I live. The more I think about it though, the less I want to. I am really mentally and physically tired from doing two of them for so long. I only get two full days off, I do 4 days a week of both jobs (so 12-13 hr days) and I am so tired. I could use the extra money, but I have become increasingly tired from lack of proper sleep and stress. I work two now because it’s to cover rent. I don’t need it to cover rent for my apt in Indy, but I still have bills. I gave it much thought, but I don’t think I am going to transfer. I am just going to put in my two week notice (about 2 weeks from now) and go from there. If nothing else, I will rest some before I consider going back to two jobs. I am also gonna look into more supplemental income as well, cause really I just can’t keep doing 2. I will if I have to, but I need a break so I am taking one. I can’t get proper rest and it’s not helping me mentally. I work for a call center and need to be alert and better able to handle stress and I can’t do that worn out. I am starting to feel burnt out ya know.. This is the job I am taking with me, so in order to help keep my mental in check, I think taking a break from working so much will help. Like I said, I can always get back in later, just taking a break. I am gonna miss a few of my coworkers, but I gotta do what I gotta do. I do at least have my sup’s number, so we can keep in touch lol. I think I am gonna miss her the most haha, she’s the best haha. No one knows I am leaving yet, so I’m sure it will come as a surprise.

I can’t wait to get settled and getting back to having somewhat of a life. I have friends in Indy that I plan to hang out with soon and never again will I have to spend another holiday alone. And I can put up my tree around Christmas for mom to finally see in person, cause pics never do it justice haha. I love my family and I missed them, so being near them will be good. I can’t live with them tho, cause they’d drive me crazy, so I’m still gonna live alone. Also, once I get settled I will be scheduling my regular dr check ups and finally look for a therapist or counselor. I really think I need one and I have been putting it off because of my anxiety. I am hoping I can stay off medication, but if i have to, I have to. I just can’t deal with constant high levels of stress and anxiety. Plus being lonely most of the time wasn’t helping my mood at all. I think also it’s hormonal, I am nearing the dreaded meno, you know one of the fun parts of being a woman haha. Thankfully that’s not hitting me just yet lol. So I am dealing with a lot with barely any outlet. I am looking forward to being at least somewhat more happy on a regular basis. It will be nice to do this road trip with mom. It’ll be nice! Can’t wait.