I finally have some good news lol

I will finally be moving back to Indiana in less than 3 months. I went down in April, week of my bday, to visit mom there and to look for places to stay. I knew I was somewhere close to the 90 days before I could start looking, so I did. I went to the place I used to live before I moved to NC first, and initially thought I was gonna be able to get one of the bigger apts that had a washer/dryer. The one i have now has one, and I have been spoiled lol. Anyway while I was there looked at a couple of other places as well. Still, i had my eyes set on the complex I lived in before. So I got an application and through emails, priority mail and all that, I was able to finally secure a place. I just got approved Thursday. I had priority mailed the app, the app fee and other documents needed to start the process. Once she got them on Tuesday, she called me, told me what else i needed (that could be sent to them electronically thankfully lol) so I got that done asap. Only downside is I only qualified for one of their smaller apts because these asses wanted 4.25x the rent. That’s just with the one job, of course, but i hadn’t planned on taking my pt job with me. I am tho, considering getting a second one once I get settled. I could use the extra money to get caught up on bills i couldn’t catch up much on cause of how much rent i had to pay and money to uber back and forth to pt job lol. But eventually I plan to only do one job, cause working 2 is kicking my ass lol. I’ll do it if I have to tho, you gotta do what you gotta do. I am just happy I got approved, got an address to move to and the money to do it. My mom is gonna fly down and rent a truck, we’re gonna hire some ppl to help load that truck and then we head back out. My plan is to be moved in the apt on July 16. My current lease is up on the 13th of that month and I had already requested well head of time to get that week off. I had no idea how i was gonna do it when I requested that week off, but I was determined to get out by then. Plus, I did not want to move to Indy in the winter…no mam no sir haha. 

I will miss NC, but it’s not my home. It never was. I came here to be with a man who was a waste of my time, love and emotions lol. I moved in my own place to get away from him. It is a great place to live, but hard for a single person to do it alone which is why I work two jobs. Plus, I am tired of being so alone here and feeling so lonely. I work and i go home, no friends, no family, just me and my thoughts. While I do love living alone, I was just not expecting to be SO alone ya know. I got tired of spending holidays and bday alone because I couldn’t afford to go any-damn-where lol. So yeah, now that I have everything set in place, I can give my current place my notice, and get things started. I have already told my job I am moving, and being that it is remote I can move it with me, thank GOD lol. Now all I need to do is get some things packed, and get more supplies to get that done. I’ll get those when I get paid. Now, once I get moved and settled, mom and I plan to still come down here to NC and to Myrtle Beach in the summer on vacations. I’m looking forward to it, road trips with mom are nice. My lil sis claims she’ll come, but I doubt it lol. Either way, it’ll be nice to have that vacation trip with mom. 

I am also planning to, once i can, to go back to visiting my friends in other states. Maybe even a concert or two, should any of my fave artist come into town haha. I have friends that live in Indy that state they wanna catch up and hang with me once I am there and I am looking forward to that. That’s something I don’t have here, something I have missed, and that’s having friends/family to hang out with. I like the idea of spending these upcoming major holidays with my family. I do hope, at some point, to date again. I’d love to have that again but this time PLEASE let it be real. I am beyond tired of having my heart broken, feelings hurt, time wasted by assholes lol. I have not had a man in my life for at least 2 years. The last guy I dated was a decent guy, but broken as hell and I couldn’t deal with it anymore. I can’t love a man who won’t allow himself to love me, or who doesn’t love himself. I can’t be with someone who doesn’t know what they want, where we are going, and does nothing to help progress the relationship. I will never again be carrying a relationship by myself. If he can’t give effort, I am not sticking around. If all he wants is sex, he can go be a ho lol. I love sex of course, but I don’t want a relationship based on just that. 

Anyway, I got some work ahead of me with the preparations to move and I am looking forward to being done and settled. I’m looking forward to having a life again.