Childless Mother

I’m 45 years old, I have been married for over 20 years and I’ve never been pregnant.

When I was a very young girl I didn’t want to be anything except a wife and mother.

My mother and father had eight children together. All of my siblings except for the youngest boy have children.

Today, I have mixed feelings about not being able to have babies.

On one hand, we’re free to do whatever we want and we have a lot of money.

On the other hand, it feels like my strong maternal instincts are being wasted and my maternal clock is panicking!!

Holidays are difficult. There’s definitely a void there.