Trapped

I feel trapped in this marriage. It’s been dead for years… I ended it once, but here we are, she convinced me to stay. Why? Not for my sake. I’ll suck it up. I’ll suffer for it. But it’s not fair to either of us to keep dragging along, wasting our time. I’m tired of wasting time. I want to move on.

My kids are my world. If I divorce her, she will crumble. My kids need her. Idk what to do anymore.

They say marriages fade in and out with desire and love. To suck it up, it will turn around. Well… when you are not in love anymore… and you’re checked out… I don’t see how it will overcome.

This is just a waste of time. For both of us. I want to move on. I want to love again.