Recent Entries

• Honesty

  March 9, 2022

  Jonathan Steingard - you were honest, and with your honesty I finally felt free to speak my truth.   I look back at entries I made in here as a teenager and young adult - oh my desperate plea with myself to believe in a God that I wasn't sure was real. To follow the…

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• I Hope You’re Happy Too.

  March 8, 2022

  I day dream about you. You often told me that when you hit 30, you'd take your own life. Because life couldn't possibly get any better - it was the downhill. We're now into our early 30's, and I often wonder what you think. What is your world? Are you happy? Do you have everything…

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• June 30, 2020

  January 12, 2021

  Friday - June 26, 2020 My sweetest girl, you are due.    Sunday - June 28, 2020 You hadn't come on your own yet, so we were preparing to go into the hospital at 9pm so we could start the process of bringing you into this world with medical intervention. It should have been a…

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• Haunt

  April 6, 2018

  I once said that you would haunt me forever. And it's true. You aren't the ruler of my heart and mind. You aren't my comparison point. My husband is better to me than you ever were, or ever could be. But you still haunt me. There's no dream of what we could be - or…

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• Living For Me.

  April 6, 2018

  I stopped being one for writing directly about my life on here a while ago, but I feel like in the past 5 years there's been so much change and growth that's been undocumented - I might as well lay it out there. I entered a phase of life where I couldn't write, but it…

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• Welcome Back.

  April 6, 2018

  My heart was shattered in a way I didn't know was possible. I was in love with some(thing) that had captivated - captured - my world for so long. And it was torn away. I missed the warning that OD was closing. I missed the chance to save the words that showed my growth from…

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• It’s that time

  September 17, 2012

  10 FACTS ABOUT ME 1) I recently became a volunteer for Dallas CASA. Couldn't be more excited to be apart of this organization. 2) The homeless community has a special place in my heart. 3) The need to dance burns in my veins. I have to do it. 4) I own a Jeep. She's my…

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• Lakeheart

  September 17, 2012

  Yellow fades to orange.to.blue.to. Purplelavanderskies. Bleeding into the horizon.  The memories of laughter can be heard in the distance.  Reminders of friendship and love.  Of heart.  What wave told your story? What sun set your life into the water? Your name printed in the ...

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• stars in a night sky.

  April 14, 2012

   That old familiar feeling of.... Blue Like Jazz. A feeling only given to you by a book that reaches deep into your. soul. Reminds you of freedom.  Reminds you of Love. Reminds you of the souls that surround you and share life with you. Look up.  At the sky. See the stars. They're ...

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