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• Not good enough

  September 6, 2025

  I wasn't good enough to be your husband. I wasn't good enough to be your friend. I wasn't good enough to be your brother. You all left me. I never hear from you anymore.

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• 7-ELEVEN/ Rebel

  September 4, 2025

  Might as well go out with a bang.   I like my job, because I like people. I like to go out of my way for customers and honestly I enjoy the paperwork part too. Buy working for this company (franchise) is fucking mind numbing. First, they work a manager to death and do nothing…

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• Who am I?

  September 3, 2025

  I don't know who I am. I don't think I ever have. I have based my life on who I was with and the children we share. For as long as she lived, I based myself on being a Father of a daughter which is different from being a Father of boys. The love is…

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• This is it

  August 30, 2025

  Money. It's all about that isn't it? Yeah, I know it's only $3.99, but OD is just a luxury I can't have anymore along with Peacock TV and Spotify. By the end of the week after bills, I don't really eat anymore. I believed in Trump, but turns out government is government no matter who…

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• Lately

  August 25, 2025

  Lately I've been having a hard time living. I mean I get up, go to work, come home, and sleep. That's all I do. I don't feel as depressed as I have before, but I don't feel alive either. Seven years and I still miss being married. The sense of purpose. My ex acts like…

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• I’m dying

  August 24, 2025

  What's killing me is the one and only thing that makes me happy.   Food.   I eat too much. I eat when I'm bored. I eat when I'm sad. When I'm lonely. I'm always sad, bored and lonely.   I allowed myself to get "cat fished". No I didn't send any money or super…

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• Life

  August 4, 2025

  Life then. Kids around me, loving wife, solid family. Little fires on nights like these. Comfort going to bed, loving mornings. Life now. Uncertainty, loneliness, hopelessness. Long nights. Sadness.

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• Anger

  July 31, 2025

  Lately I've become angry about it all. Why was it, is it, that I'm the bad guy in the divorce? Seriously, she plotted, planned, lied, cheated, yet I have and still am being treated as though it was all me. The mutual "friends" who accepted her and him days later. The friends and family that…

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• Life

  July 24, 2025

  I hate living this way. It's kind of hard not to though. I was left in a deep hole after the divorce, where she was not. I built my life with her and our boys for over 20 years. My dreams and hopes and possessions. Then some other man came along and benefited from all…

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