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• Letting go of what doesn’t serve me

  December 8, 2023

  Yoga class was really hard yesterday emotionally. Sam said hi and I asked him how he was. He said he was going to put on a recording because he couldn't stop sneezing. There were only three others in the class, none of them stayed in the poses long, and only one stayed to the end.…

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• Processing

  December 7, 2023

  It's okay to be who I am. It takes some time to process the hurt but reflecting on the meeting yesterday I see lots of opportunities to be gentle with myself. I have too much of a tendency to care how others see me but the truth that isn't necessarily a bad thing is that…

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• Closure

  December 6, 2023

  I am torn right now between writing one final email to the community that kept scheduling these meetings with me and writing a diary entry. In the end ahhh thankfully I chose the diary entry but I think I may take a break from writing for a while as this also keeps me in old…

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• Pessimism and Epicurianism

  December 5, 2023

  I feel guilty for not joining any of these live course or coaching sessions so far though it is most likely that no one notices and that I probably wouldn't have anything personally to contribute but maybe that's because I'm not getting into it. I am well aware that not even venturing into the on...

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• Why is Lolita barefoot and other translation puzzles

  December 4, 2023

  I've read the opening paragraphs of Lolita many times. I started reading it in Spanish because I had the idea of reading Russian literature in Spanish which is just as good as reading it in the English translation and Spanish leaves more room in my imagination to wonder about the text. Maybe I wi...

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• Giving myself credit

  December 4, 2023

  Today (yesterday now as I finished writing the following day) I went to another 90 minute yoga class followed by 60 minutes of pilates. They both feel amazing. I was frustrated with my body today though, especially with issues around the top of my left leg at the hip and my back at the top…

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• Psychology

  December 1, 2023

  I was thinking of California. How it is nice, in a way, that a Californian should sort of help me begin the process of coming back to a sense of health and safety after having such strange experiences there that I can't even be sure are real. I had some experiences that gave me bad…

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• Writing about trading options

  November 29, 2023

  This morning I watched most of an excellent video almost two and a half hours long on options trading and in watching it a lot of things have just clicked and it is just fun to learn about different options strategies now. took up significant mental processing space but I am getting more and more...

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• Ich kann deutsch!

  November 28, 2023

  I have been such a night owl (finally waking up for extended hours sometime between midnight and 3 AM). I spent an hour or two on German today (didn't feel like tracking). I did the first three chapters, on present tense and when the verb part goes to the end of a sentence (verbal position…

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