#love

I stopped looking at him as a boyfriend, as a man, as someone I loved. Because, after believing that our love is a big one, one that we only see on screens, one we only read in fairytales, he texted me. After a whole month, believing that he will wait for me, loving every bit…

Before Christ. I was raised by a single mom who worked 2 jobs my entire childhood. My parents divorced when I was 2 and my dad left us. I was the youngest of 3 kids, often left unsupervised or in the care of others who did not keep me safe. I was abused by various…

I had another glorious day yesterday. Although I didn’t sleep much, I got out of bed and bought a #5 from McDonalds(McGriddle meal) & drove across the street to pick up a cinnamon dolce latte from Starbucks. I came home and savored every morsel. I canceled all my plans for the day because I w...

I had the most perfect day. Let me tell you about it. I woke up from 7 hours of sleep. I went to the 99 cent store and bought snacks for the crew tomorrow for my music video. Then I got a Starbucks latte. Then, I went to McDonald’s and got an McGriddle value meal…

I never made it to the recording studio yet. Instead, I’ve been battling my addiction. Constantly I’ve been feeling cravings. I noticed my cravings come from frustration. But by having a clear mind, I am able to work through the problem quicker and more effectively. Sometimes I get frustrated tha...

I took a laxative around 4am last night. I only took it because my tummy was bloated and I hadn’t had a bowel moment in at least four days. I can literally feel the toxins in my intestines. I got eye lash extensions from this wonderful soul named Gigi. I was locked in her bathroom…

I just woke up from another nightmare. I had like 4 girls and 3 guys over. We stayed in a house rental for a fun getaway. I didn’t know any of them except for my real life friend, Paul, whose been my homie fr fr since over 5 years. In my dream, something made me…

I have an audition tomorrow morning for Samsung Galaxy. It pays $800 but $2500 if they actually use the footage. Then afterwards I have a studio session with El DeBarge. I met with a vocal coach today who looked just like Santa Claus. When I first met him he seemed very depressed and his home&hel...

This morning I woke up to my dad calling me at 7am. He was waking me up from a bad dream. My dream was about something that happened to me in the past. Long story short, there were these two men who ran the choir division at my church. I asked to sing one of…

I was sleeping so well just now. Only slept probably about 4 hours. I woke up to pee and drink some water. When I laid back down, Chrisean & Blueface flashed into my mind. Like wtf? Why tf are they even on my mind? I thought about how they’re probably sleeping in the same bed…