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I was watching Anne of Green Gables today and had an epiphany towards the end of the movie. Anne and Gilbert were talking on a bridge when she disclosed her plans to stay home and continue writing instead of heading back to school. What struck me was when she said "It's just that i went…

I honestly can't remember when you were born, I just remember wanting to be an only child. From a young age I wanted all the attention I could get, and there you were all new and shiny stealing my mothers time. What I maybe lacked to see as a bestfriend, was a sibling that I…

Well it is that time when my doctor say's it is time to lose weight. I can honestly say i hate it when doctors say that shit. I mean i know i am now a big girl. But i use to be a cheer leader. This is what 3 bad marriages do to people. I…

The living arrangement in my family is pretty wild if you ask me. My older sister and her 5 kids are living with my mom and my little brother and sister. That's 9 people so far, PLUS 2 babies. The one y/0 belongs to my 18 y/o niece and the 7 month old belongs to…

Yesterday I dreamed about him again. We were kissing on a yellow leather chair in a living room with yellow walls, and dimly lit yellow lights. The TV was on. It was playing a soft tune, or a light news channel. I felt peaceful. I felt so open. So in love. We were both so…

I will leave My heart at the door I won’t say a word They’ve all been said before, you know So why don’t we Just play pretend Like we’re not scared of what is coming next Or scared of having nothing left Look, don’t get me wrong I know there is no tomorrow All I…

Damn I fucking love ducks

Depression is a war within yourself, and it's nice to have a marching song that makes you feel that victory over it is obtainable. I'm listening to If I Lose Myself Tonight by OneRepublic--the Orchestral Intro version by Alesso--the orchestra brings a certain drama to the song that is fitting to ...

Let's spend a moment talking about the man who has been predominately by my side for an upwards of nearly two years. I don't know how or why I'm even thinking about sharing these things I ponder with you, but I need an outlet. I met him, in a situation that anyone could guess wasn't…

When I was out and about being a bad girl, I became close with someone on my daughter's father's side of the family. He was a bad drug and alcohol user. Eventually we hooked up a few times and decided being good friends was the best option . After committing some major crimes he turned…