#love

[embed]https://youtu.be/q7yCLn-O-Y0[/embed] . So Saturday night a friend was sending me texts telling me to watch this video, watch this other video, these were praise videos,  she is sort of aware of what is going on in my life and I can't share all the things in her texts but if she only knew h...

I don't know why I'm so anxious about medication and  my body. I'm somewhat educated on disease processes and symptoms of them. I keep lying down and feeling short of breath, I am so depressed that I honestly can only tell you I know that by my (non satisfiable) feeling. I continuously search for...

So if your not familiar with the story,  Peniel was the place that Jacob wrestled with God,  the literal meaning of the place name is "the face of God" Jacob was on his way to meet his brother Esau who was basically going to kick Jacob's ass and take his wives,  in the dark by…

i'm not a tattoo kinda guy,  in fact this tattoo has been on my mind for almost 14 years and I finally got around to it..partly because if I am going to carry something for the rest of my life then I want it to have lots of meaning...this will be surrounded with a wall…

The reality is that She can't get close to me,  because I don't think I can even truly open up..the innermost core of who I am is so protected, covered, and layered, locks, chains,boxes, wraps, covered and covered, because I am afraid that the person who can actually get in there...what if they d...

[embed]https://youtu.be/4vo-c3yFyNw[/embed] S0 much emotion these past days, so much work, so much thought...I want her (and only her) to kiss me where it hurts...

The setting is a high end restaurant, the kind of place that lawyers take rich clients (but bill them later for the service!)  We seem to always end up at this particular location late in the afternoon because we just work through the lunch cycle..(interior design and construction right?!?) &nbsp...

This is a repost, in part to introduce myself, in part to also find myself back in a place where i am ready to share with strangers again. This post was originally posted almost 10 years ago,  it is all me,  I have grown in lots of ways and here like nowhere else have I…

I was watching Anne of Green Gables today and had an epiphany towards the end of the movie. Anne and Gilbert were talking on a bridge when she disclosed her plans to stay home and continue writing instead of heading back to school. What struck me was when she said "It's just that i went…

I honestly can't remember when you were born, I just remember wanting to be an only child. From a young age I wanted all the attention I could get, and there you were all new and shiny stealing my mothers time. What I maybe lacked to see as a bestfriend, was a sibling that I…