#love

life is good. i'm not sure i ever expected to feel this way again, but i do.  my divorce was final in december 2018.  there have certainly been tough times between then and now, but i've done my best to just go with the flow and experience the joy in each day as much as…

I think that the last time I wrote about my biological father, Donal, it was to say that I think he might be autistic.  There have been significant developments in that part of my life. First, I shared my thoughts with my biological father's brother, David.  I actually met Uncle David before I me...

I lost my Dad sudden from a massive heart attack when I was 15. Its been a thorn in my side the last 49 years that I never got to say good by or to say I love you one last time. I was very close to my Dad and have so many memories of…

Everyone says she didn't love me the way I deserved to be loved. Everyone says she didn't deserve me. That she wasn't there for me the way I needed. Maybe they're right. Maybe, even if she decides to come back, as we have said might happen (despite divorce), maybe I should move on. Maybe I…

So fifteen years ago I had a severe breakdown, was hospitalised and diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia. In the last fifteen years I have clawed my back to the light; to a common reality; to a place where I feel vaguely connected to the people around me. I'm still working on this. I am a lot&he...

So. I met this guy eight years ago on holiday in Europe. I fell for him so, very, hard and I think he fell the same for me. He was married, I was in a relationship and neither of us was happy with our partners. We spent a week together and it was magical. When…

He messaged back. The guy I messaged eleven months ago. I messaged him again, two months ago, about two hours after finally breaking up with my ex. I'm not proud of myself, waiting such a short amount of time before approaching someone else but in my defence I didn't expect him to reply. I was&he...

[embed]https://youtu.be/q7yCLn-O-Y0[/embed] . So Saturday night a friend was sending me texts telling me to watch this video, watch this other video, these were praise videos,  she is sort of aware of what is going on in my life and I can't share all the things in her texts but if she only knew h...

I don't know why I'm so anxious about medication and  my body. I'm somewhat educated on disease processes and symptoms of them. I keep lying down and feeling short of breath, I am so depressed that I honestly can only tell you I know that by my (non satisfiable) feeling. I continuously search for...

So if your not familiar with the story,  Peniel was the place that Jacob wrestled with God,  the literal meaning of the place name is "the face of God" Jacob was on his way to meet his brother Esau who was basically going to kick Jacob's ass and take his wives,  in the dark by…