#love

I have a friend named John Mark. He's nice, kind, quiet and cute. We are classmates in grade school until he moved to another school. And then when junior high comes, I had transfer to high school and found out that he's there! We became friends and he made me felt comfortable because he respect&...

I don't know how I became so lost, so troubled, so f*cked up. I'm 19 years old, and my life has been crumbling for so long but without the effort to put it back together again, I have fallen down into a rabbit hole. Depression, Anxiety, Panic disorder, eating disorder, self harm, commitment issue...

I wrote a letter to you last night, a hand-written letter. This is not the first letter I wrote to you since we are apart, but I'd send this one first. The other one, more sentimental, will be sent later, after I finish your birthday gift. Yes, your birthday gift, this year, you will also…

It has been a break since 29 Apr, almost a week ago. There was time that I unpublished my entries, but today I decided to just publish them again. I don't know if my actions are good or bad, just they are, as facts, probably. Today I see Dr. S., my doctor and literally I…

I get up late today. It is a Thursday. I was recovering from my 10-day streak of crazy-busy-working-like-slave. Grading is not my strength, and yes, I have done far better since my years at M. I can now jump in and do the grading without too much of procrastinating, oh well, still a little bit.&h...

28 April 2021 Today I miss you.  Yeah, don't know, really miss you. Then I start to imagine. I imagine you touch me, we are doing this that kissing and things. You said something about a joyful trip with your friend, someone who you admired, loved his work, his poetry and his soul. Then I…

28 April 2021 Today is my first day of creating this diary blog. I create it for my love, and my imagination, or a combination of both, as it should be. It can even be a place for me to practice expressing myself in English (I'm not an English native speaker). It will remain public,…

Dear ____, I happened to stumble upon your church’s instagram story.  You were given an award for all the hard work you put into helping others.  I’m so glad you got the recognition you deserve.  In a small way, I was concerned that you weren’t being appreciated for the blood, sweat, and tears yo...

I remember you as if it were yesterday. There was a snowstorm and I was seeing you off at a railway station, strangely completely alone at the platform. I was sitting on a bench, and the world was completely quiet, and I was waiting for you to arrive and to leave forever. I have always…

I do recognize when things started to change. To be honest, I can’t fault him for his reasoning. Although I don’t agree with it, it was his reasoning so it was real to him. Around November of 2019 (I believe it was around then) his son got involved in a horrible scary situation. The reality…