#narcissisticabuse

I moved two weeks ago. I left my husband and moved in with my sister. She completely rearranged her living situation for me. She emptied out her 14 year old daughter's bedroom to make space for my stuff and she and her daughter are sharing her bedroom, even the bed. That is how much my…

This Mother’s Day I was holding out some hope that my sisters might send me a message or call me, but they didn’t. Being kicked aside by my family when they’ve been the center of my whole existence is the most painfully lonely thing I’ve ever experienced. The good news is I’ve moved past the…

So, I was looking out at my beautiful backyard taking a moment to myself, when I realized... I can feel it! Or more like I can't feel it. That typical feeling of emptiness, dread, guilt, deep sadness. They're gone today. I just feel normal. I don't feel overly happy, but praise heeem, I feel norm...

I’m struck by something on my Instagram page. It’s a post that reads: repeating yourself to an emotionally immature person doesn’t work. They are only willing to see what’s helpful for them. Invoking self-awareness can be harmful to a person who thrives on blaming others. Emotionally immature peo...

I just watched Toy Story 2 with my son and I was really taken back by the Prospector. The Prospector is the villain of the story, but, as with all covert narcissists, you don't know until the very end. You don't realize until it's too late. The covert narcissist disguises themselves until there's...

Last night something really dark settled in my body and mind. My mother is a child abuser. I've realized over the years that her behavior was abusive and incredibly damaging. I know that makes her an abuser, but my programming was still protecting her. I still wanted to believe it wasn't that bad...

Dear Sadie, I have to write this letter to my diary because you're not speaking to me right now. I love you so much. I wish that you would let me love you, but over the years it seems like the harder I try the farther away it pushes you. It's been clear to me…

The last two days have been really hard. I'm reading a narcissistic abuse memoir called Believing Me by Ingrid Clayton. I thought that I would be comforted by reading someone else's experience, or maybe less lonely--gain more insight. I'm on a quest right now to find out as much information about...

I'm trying to stop overthinking things so much. It causes me to be stuck and never make a decision. I'm going to call this diary Oh Mylanta because it's the very first thing that popped into my head and so I'm rolling with it. Otherwise I would sit there for an hour thinking of a…