#regret

Friday, September 15th, 2023 1:17am I feel lied to. I feel resentful of the adults of my childhood who gave me little to no guidance resulting in unnecessary hardships and irrecoverable damages made to my life. I’m hard-headed, but I still feel cheated. I resent my mother for loving me, and for n...

This morning I had a wave of nostalgia associated with the online diary I kept for over a decade. I recorded so many thoughts and moments in that diary during my teenage years. There was a sense of community that I haven't found online again. I  I couldn't have known it at the time, but…

Days are long sometimes. I feel like I’m running out of energy. The life I had just slipping away. I’m scared. I’m so scared this was all for nothing. I’ve missed so many opportunities and chances of many things. I regret now more than I ever have. I love life…I just don’t get dealt the…

I've been thinking that no matter how I'd rather not change anything due to discomfort, and on the flip side thinking about running away from it all because sometimes everything is just too much, there's some things I might have to sacrifice- whether it's the 'right thing' to do, or the scariest....

It's like after I hurt you I couldn't come back from that. Now everything's so serious. I just want to lie on the couch and watch a movie with you. It's okay though, I think I need to let you go... and hope that you'll come back like before this ever happened.