regret – Open Diary

When I ignored my gut feelings

Schrecken13

1 week ago

It was exactly a year ago to this day that I was driving from Sandusky, Ohio, to Fayetteville, West Virginia on my way back from Cedar Point. The weather was nearly perfect, with blue skies and warm spring air that lacked the often oppressive humidity of summers in the eastern US. The time was cl...

Intro to the OC Chapters

MaskedWhisper

May 7, 2024

This is a series of chapters where I will be unfolding a deeply personal story that has shaped who I am today. It is my sincere hope that through the telling of this story, I can find some level of peace with the events that transpired and perhaps reconcile with myself for the person I…

The Heaviest Bones

HeavyBones

September 15, 2023

Friday, September 15th, 2023 1:17am I feel lied to. I feel resentful of the adults of my childhood who gave me little to no guidance resulting in unnecessary hardships and irrecoverable damages made to my life. I’m hard-headed, but I still feel cheated. I resent my mother for loving me, and for n...

Time was passing like a hand waving from a train I wanted to be on

red earth

June 15, 2023

This morning I had a wave of nostalgia associated with the online diary I kept for over a decade. I recorded so many thoughts and moments in that diary during my teenage years. There was a sense of community that I haven't found online again. I I couldn't have known it at the time, but…

Days

sullen_girl

April 28, 2023

Days are long sometimes. I feel like I’m running out of energy. The life I had just slipping away. I’m scared. I’m so scared this was all for nothing. I’ve missed so many opportunities and chances of many things. I regret now more than I ever have. I love life…I just don’t get dealt the…

I Didn’t Do It Right

Ren

April 21, 2018

I've been thinking that no matter how I'd rather not change anything due to discomfort, and on the flip side thinking about running away from it all because sometimes everything is just too much, there's some things I might have to sacrifice- whether it's the 'right thing' to do, or the scariest....

Wishful Thinking

**LIZzY**

October 17, 2017

It's like after I hurt you I couldn't come back from that. Now everything's so serious. I just want to lie on the couch and watch a movie with you. It's okay though, I think I need to let you go... and hope that you'll come back like before this ever happened.