#relationships

I'm asexual, but i'm sure i'm not aromantic.  I've also always thought of myself as heterosexual (and then heteroromantic), but then i'm really not sure. I've had several long term relationships with males, however i would always get bored in the end.  My last partner I actually lived with for se...

I don't know how I became so lost, so troubled, so f*cked up. I'm 19 years old, and my life has been crumbling for so long but without the effort to put it back together again, I have fallen down into a rabbit hole. Depression, Anxiety, Panic disorder, eating disorder, self harm, commitment issue...

Been a busy couple of days... I can say that much... yesterday I didn't accomplish much... truly.  I got my exercise in.. closed all my rings on my Apple Watch (which I do every day)..so that's not saying much... my husband and I got in a bit of a tiff last night over my weight…

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ABOUT TO BE BROKE WITH A BUSINESS I AM DISAPPOINTED TO BE RUNNING ALONE. - I need to calm this anger down. I need to tame the fear of- How can you literally love someone to the core of your being and hate them at the same time???HOW? How can you feel so complete…

While starting writing and journaling has already had a cathartic effect only three posts in, I also find myself overwhelmed by the flood of emotions, memories, and doubt the process has released. I think about so many things I want to unload. It’s pretty obvious that I’m a pro at bottling up. I ...

So when I told my mom about the car and what it costs, he came downstairs to listen to me. I finished my call and he kept walking around. He was looking to approach me but i refused to engage. He walked into the hallway, and then walked back down it after mumbling something to…

Tonight I sit alone as has become the my normal of many years. At other times I had women on my mind and in my heart. Gently often vibrantly snuggled in the reality and heart valves of my life. Now, I look around my house and no woman here. I look at the various chat…

Step One Acceptance. Your ex broke up with you. Just like it is not easy to hear that the person you are madly in love with no longer loves you, believe it or not, it is difficult for your ex to break the news that they do not love you anymore. So credit where credit…

Listen to the dread.  It is never wrong. I’ve had three serious relationships in my life.  Antonio, EJ and Michael. Antonio was my first love.  As an adolescent, I adored him.  I thought he was smart, charismatic and funny.  I was a senior in High School and I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do…

  TRIGGER WARNING! Let us take a break about talking about Francisco, and take a trip down Mental health lane. In 2015, I moved out of my parents house and into my own space. I was starting college and working at the same time. October came around and I met this guy who changed my life.…