#relationships

I've been thinking that no matter how I'd rather not change anything due to discomfort, and on the flip side thinking about running away from it all because sometimes everything is just too much, there's some things I might have to sacrifice- whether it's the 'right thing' to do, or the scariest....

Two jobs, two homes, three sets of friends and a family life to juggle. Most days I can't tell if I'm more physically exhausted, or more mentally and emotionally. I find I don't have sufficient outlets, even in writing; I'm not giving myself enough of /something/, but I can't put my finger on wha...

We fought into the wee hours of the night last night. I laid there nearly emotionless as she screamed at me about how much I don't care. She got out of bed to pack her stuff, screaming "this is real, this time it's for good!" I remained silent. She ravaged though her small drawer of…

Three weeks ago, my engagement ended. Her name was Sarah and I've known her since 4th grade. It wasn't until 8th grade where I started to fall for her. That summer, we spent time talking on the phone. I had a giant crush on her, but not having the guts to tell her that, I…

I had this whole elaborate meaningful schpeel I wanted my first entry to have, but fuck it. Too much effort, not enough actual writing. Couldn't remember my old OD name that I had since '04. Mackerelsophist-something, or peachxchampagne, eh, close enough. I don't remember where I was the last tim...

Before I met you, life was boring and I was depressed. Not to say that I didn’t have things to do, but I’d lost enthusiasm to do them. You inspired me to make changes. I didn’t want to sleep anymore. For the last three years the only thing I would reliably get out of bed…

He said he’d call me after the gym, and I didn’t hear from him. It’s okay. I’ll leave it. I’ve done what I can for now, and anything more is pathetic. I don’t like the way he talks to me when he’s frustrated. I find he gets frustrated quite easily. I suppose he gets frustrated…

I hate this because I feel deflated. Deflated. The same word you used to describe how I make you feel. It’s a kind of emotional exhaustion. Disappointed. Hopeless. A little confused. Why.

So I'm basically starting a second OD as my other OD has all my friends and (more importantly) my wife's friends on it. I think the last time I restarted an OD was during an epic relationship failure.  It turns out I'm really not good at these things. So all cards on the table -…