Weird Night

Yeah… OD is being super stupid.

Everytime I log in, it says that I used the wrong password.

but then when I click "home page" it has me logged in.

Then it said I used too many log in attempts and my account was locked, buuuut… here I am writing.

Whatever, you silly OD! Work it out!

Anyway, I figured out the chapters thing.

THAT’S STUPID.

I don’t like it.

I like my chapters in my menu to the left… Oh well.

Just another thing to get used to I guess.

I remember railing against the changes before, so it’ll all become "normy norm" soon enough.

So last night was… weird.

Baboo was gonna meet me at the train station but ended up getting there 20 minutes after me. This isn’t a problem on the surface, but it takes me about half an hour (or more if traffic is bad) to get to my kids and I have to get them by 6… so I get to the train station by 5 and the latest I like to leave there is 5:10… so to leave after 5:20 was gonna be an issue, but I didn’t want to just leave him there.

Anyway, when we finally managed to connect his energy was instantly agitated. I turned off the radio and didn’t say a word. I just knew he was in a bad mood. Eventually things felt more even so I turned the radio back on but he has had a really bad week I guess. I tried to cheer him up and offered him dinner but he didn’t really want anything.

After I got the boys we went home and got his clothes all fixed up. I got the boys some food and after they ate I dropped him off at home.

I went home in just a really ugh mood myself.

There was a moment when the boys were eating where we just laid down together on my bed and it just felt like we needed more of THAT time. Like… we were both sorta in yucky moods and it was a comfort that was nice.

Anyway, I called him a little later and I felt that sort of "hunger" to be near him. It’s hard to explain. Like sometimes you call and it’s like "oh whatever, we have nothing to talk about blah blah ok enough of this bye"

but last night it felt more urgent and needed and I wished he had been there so we could just BE.

but he also REALLY needed his alone time and so I was ready to give it to him.

Add to that: I found a tiny roach in the bathroom and I was just agitated.

I DON’T WANT TO DEAL WITH ROACHES.

Ugh.

I’m gonna have to do a major clean this weekend. Probalby Friday while the boys are in school I’ll crate up the cats and really spray their room down.

I might buy some foggers if I start seeing more.

It’s just not what I want to deal with and I will complain to Eddie if it becomes a big issue. For now I’ll do what I need, but i haven’t been in that house long enough to invite a bunch of goddamned bugs!

argh!

I have a feeling I’m gonna become a neatfreak.

Anyway, since my local channels are acting like crap I couldn’t watch my soap operas like I normally do. Instead I watched some re-runs of house and fell asleep on them before 10.

I’ve been getting super tired by like 8 now. It’s stupid.  I think it’s cuz we wake up half an hour earlier than we did and my body just needs to adjust.

PLEDGE: I will set up my playstation and DDR tonight. I must!

Work today is gonna be meh.

I’m not sure what to do. I think I’ll probably end up doing a rotation of all my files so that stuff over a year old can be boxed and stored.

Doesn’t that sound like a party?!

And really, whyyyy is it ONLY wednesday!!! boo!

At least i get paid today.

I’m hungry.

Guess I’ll have some haystacks. (frosted mini wheats).

yuck.