Struggling, But Persevering

Today, I remained conflicted. 

I went to work.  Did my seven hours and promptly called it a day.  Typical Saturday for me, but today felt a bit different.  I battled just a little, being that emotionally, I wasn’t feeling it.  Still, I did what I needed to do and I got through it.  Maybe.  Just barely.  Maybe I work tomorrow?  Maybe I don’t.  Don’t know yet.  Tomorrow will be a new day though.  We’ll see how I feel.    

I found the time and strength to write my last entry, titled “Not Worth It”.  Strangely, the entry that motivated my entry was suddenly deleted.  Regardless, my feelings remained and even as I write this, they still linger. 

One person noted on my entry, which I appreciate.  I’ll respond to her notes in due time.  Thanks goes out to her for taking the time and energy to “note” me.      

In my last entry, my intent was not to come off as being so sad or traumatized that I was somehow looking for a permanent way out.  I hope that no one who read that entry got that impression because I was definitely not of the mindset that I wanted to harm myself in any way.  JB taught me years ago that that’s never a way out and I never forgot his words.  In the end, I’ll be all right.  I guess I’m just currently in the midst of a rough patch and I’m still kind of struggling and trying to get through it.           

From what I’ve read on Open Diary today and even yesterday, it looks like I’m not the only one going through some emotionally difficult times. 

Things will get better, not just for me, but for all of us. 

The time frame for that might vary, but we’ll get there eventually.

I’m still hurting, but I’m trying to work through it.        

I felt like writing a little something before calling it a night, so there you go.

Onward into tomorrow…