I Never Cry

This morning I woke up with eye irritation. I normally never cry, but last night, just before I fell asleep, I did. Not much, not like sobbing or anything. Just a few harmless little tears. But tears contain stress hormones, salt, and whatever toxins I don’t know about. This stayed on my eyelid all night, and this morning it feels like gravel in my eye. Anyway, lesson to be learned is: always wash your face after crying. Maybe another lesson would be to cry more often so stress hormones don’t build up.

I normally never cry. For some reason last night, and I literally have no idea why, I just found myself shedding tears before sleep. I think I was maybe feeling a little bit lonely. I hardly ever get “lonely”. I don’t require a lot of socialization, and usually get enough of that during the day. Usually more than I need actually lol.

And then my work projects usually have my mind so preoccupied that I’m just usually happy. Lately, I’ve been eating junk food and that has really messed up my system. Yesterday someone offered me an ice cream sandwich. I should’ve said no, but I have little self-control if something is offered to me. Especially if it’s something I’m trying to avoid. I guess my subconscious doesn’t blame me for my descent into sugary chaos if someone else offers it. Or maybe I’m too polite to say no. But I’m pretty sure it’s because I have little self-control.

So, other than eye irritation, I’m feeling a lot better emotionally this morning. Not quite ready to seize the day or anything, but maybe I’ll give it a polite nod.