Back to Normal
It took most of the day for my eye to stop irritating me. Lesson learned: no more crying.
All of the leaves are red now on the trees along the street. It’s beautiful. And fall is actually my favorite time of year. It’s not too hot and not too cold. I love the sound of the leaves crunching on the sidewalk. And the air just smells differently in the fall. Fresher I think.
This time of year always reminds me of the first year we moved after my parents broke up. I was just a teenager, around 14. My grandmother had just died, which was the pivotal point in Mom’s decision to leave Dad. Grammy had been the only thing holding mom in that area for so long towards the end. Grammy was dying of cancer. I’m sure Mom was going through a lot of stuff inside that I couldn’t grasp at the time. I was just glad we were out of a very negative situation when we moved.
Anyway, how that relates to my love of fall. It was October when we moved. And our new town was like a fresh start and I remember walking down the sidewalk every day and just being happy about my life. It was also when I got my first boyfriend. That was a rather short-lived romance when he wanted to do more than just go for walks in the crunchy leaves and kiss and play football. (I was a big fan of football at the time, and I was also a tomboy) So, he got angry because I did not want to go further than kissing (I was 14 for heaven’s sake!!) and I refused to be pressured into anything, so he shoved snow down the back of my shirt after the first snowfall and broke up with me. Let’s just say, I never regretted my decisions there lol.
Regardless of the first boyfriend disaster, fall is still my favorite time of year. Just the feeling in the air takes me back to my teenage years where life seemed perfect. Or at least perfectly manageable.
It’s funny how random things can just snap us back through time like a time machine.
I used to love winter, but because of the weight loss, I am now highly susceptible to the cold. In some way, I miss the natural insulation that I lost these last few years. I get extremely dry eyes more often than not, usually at night, so I know eye irritation. I hate having thin corneas. Thank you, LASIK.
@peripheral_visionary I never liked winter because I don’t like the cold. I used to love summer but now I just find it too hot. In my previous entry my eye irritation today is explained, it was just from a few tears last night by accident lol, and the stress chemicals in the tears stayed on my eyelids and this morning it felt like gravel in my eyes.
@elizabethbarstone-novelist I know that gravel in the eyeball feeling. In the morning, every now and then, my eyes will feel that way when I first open them and the pain can be excruciating. The dryness is that bad.
@peripheral_visionary I agree, it is the worst feeling. I don’t use eye drops or anything and this doesn’t happen to me often. Sometimes I have to use an ice pack. But it is miserable.
@elizabethbarstone-novelist I use a thicker kind of eye drop (Visine won’t cut it) and some nights, I’ll use an eye gel to keep my eyes moist through the night. For the most part, this gel works. The eye drops work too, thankfully.
@peripheral_visionary I’m sorry you have to go through that.
@elizabethbarstone-novelist It’s the other price I paid after undergoing two corrective eye surgeries. I’m used to it.
@peripheral_visionary That sounds painful.
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