Pay Me No Attention

I am an introvert.

Assuming that you’ve been reading this journal, you might already know that.  I may have mentioned this in one or two previous entries.  It’s a thing, my being introverted.  I’ve since come to accept this as just the way that I am and I’m not looking to make any changes to myself as a person.  This is me.  I’m comfortable with it.  The rest of the world be damned.

While I don’t care to be around people, in a general capacity, I especially prefer not to be around people I can’t stand or those individuals I don’t particularly care for.  In most cases, I’d prefer to just be by myself.  If you bring with you nothing of value, why I would I waste my time being around you?  I wouldn’t.  I know that I’d have so many better things I could be doing, even if it means doing something basic and mundane, like replacing laces on my shoes.

Secondly, I despise many of my coworkers.  Many of them are of little, if any, value.  Keep both facts in mind as this entry progresses.

Apparently, they’re going to be doing another Trunk-or-Treat event at the office again this year.  I’m not surprised.  This would be the third year that the department will be hosting this event.  I guess the department figures that the last two Trunk-or-Treat events went well, so why not do it for a third straight year?  I participated in Trunk-or-Treat the first year we did it and it was all right.  It was just kind of there.  Whatever.  I didn’t know what to expect for that first go-round, so I figured I’d give it a go.  I did and as it turned out, I didn’t like it.  It was unusually hot outside that day, so that alone made it uncomfortable.  I wore a black Punisher-themed shirt that day, which also made it hotter than it needed to be because the black material made the heat so much more absorbent.  I already run hot as it is, so that did not help.  Sure, there were people who attended, but I was able to hide in the background, so they really didn’t bother me.  I just didn’t like the act of just sitting there, in the heat, and not being even remotely productive.  I enjoy avoiding work every now and then, but that wasn’t the way I wanted to do it.

For last year’s iteration of Trunk-or-Treat, I blew off the whole thing with zero hesitation.  I did not give a damn.  Once I knew it was going to be a thing again in 2024, I immediately told Christina that I wanted no part of it and she effectively excused me from having to waste my time for a second straight year.  I don’t know how everything went that day because I didn’t even bother to go outside to check any of it out, not even for curiosity’s sake.  I could not have cared any less than I did and I’m hoping that my behavior showed it.  Rather than associate with people I do not care for, I opted to stay in the office and get some actual work done.  I do not regret that decision.

Enter 2025.  I again want no part of this year’s Trunk-or-Treat event.  This time around, I will not be telling Christina either, because I’m hoping that she already knows that I will not be participating.  I’m not saying a word, unless she asks me directly.  There’s nothing that would have changed my mind going into this October that would suddenly make me want to be a part of this year’s Halloween festivities, so I’m avoiding the whole damn thing again.

I want to say that the first year that the department did this whole Trunk-or-Treat thing brought out, for lack of a better term, the attention whores.  I think that Halloween, in general, tends to bring that out in some people, adults exclusively, that is.  I’ve always considered Halloween to be a time for children to be children.  I know that adults get into the festivities, and it just so happens that some of them just have to have that spotlight on them.  Being that I personally never look to be the center of attention in any situation, I don’t support that whole “needing to be the center of attention” thing, regardless of who’s doing it.  I will always hover towards and look to become part of the background in every social situation.  Being that I’m anticipating that this year’s Trunk-or-Treat will once again be warm or potentially hot outside, and given my tendency to want to fade into the background, I will avoid being outside completely with annoying people.  If I’m going to become a form of wallflower, I’m going to do it inside of the office, where hopefully it won’t be as hot inside as I believe it will be outside.

The goal would also be to park along the curb not too far from the office itself, so that I can sneak out and avoid all detection.

As is typically the case in that office, no one will give a damn if I leave, so I will definitely be looking to escape as soon as I have an opening.